Hanni
Sundays were the usual going to church and staying behind to help pick up. And the only exciting thing about Sundays is the fact that I get to see Minji. Sometimes we don't interact but our eyes would always find each other in the crowded room.
But today was one of those rare Sundays that I got some time to be with Minji. Even if it was handing out food to the brothers and sister that joined us this Sunday.
Minji was next to me getting the plates ready as I was moving behind her trying to get the napkins in place. Other people joined us but stayed away due to wanting to be away from Minji. But one thing I noticed, Minji doesn't seem to care, as long as I'm with her the world meant nothing to her. And I swear to god himself that it makes everything in me swell with happiness.
Is there a chance that I could mean so much to her?
"Uh, where are the spoons?" Minji asked as she started to look for the said spoons. I could only chuckle as I had them in my hands. I just stood there and looked at her, waiting for her to notice where they were.
And while she took her time to realize, my eyes drifted to her lips. Lips that managed to make my world daze just by looking at them. And those desires are ones that I shouldn't feel. The desire to kiss her shouldn't be so strong, but a part of me wondered what it would feel like to have her lips over my own.
To have her hold me so carefully as she placed her lips over mine and show me what love was just through that gesture. For me to be wrapped in her warmth and scent for the rest of my life.
Was I in love with her? Yes. Am I scared? A little. But am I ashamed of these feelings? No.
How could I be ashamed of these feelings? They're beautiful and something just so wonderful to experience. Maybe it wasn't for the person it should've been, according to the Bible. But for me, this was the right person. That my souls has found its other half, and no matter what the Bible says or what my parents and the people say, Minji might just be the love of my life.
"Hanni, I swear-oh, you had them!" Minji's voice caught me by surprise and made me drop the box of spoons. She didn't even bother looking at the scattered spoons on the ground as she took a cautious step closer to me. "You okay? You've been absent minded this whole afternoon." She said, worry in her eyes as she looked at me attentively.
"I'm okay, I-I'm sorry about the spoons." I said as I looked down at the poor spoons. Luckily some of them were still inside the box untouched. Minji waved me off as she dropped down to get the box of spoons and pick up the mess I made.
I looked around to see that the others have left, probably to go pick up the casseroles from the peoples cars. I took one last glance around, noting that no one was looking our way.
I quickly sunk down on my knees as I kneeled in front of Minji who was counting the spoons to make sure there were enough and I didn't hold back from cupping her cheeks because she looked so cute doing that.
"You're going to bruise my cheeks." Minji muffled completely paying no mind to the way I played with her cheeks. Squishing, pinching, and squeezing. She didn't care, and she's told me it before. I could do whatever as long as it made me happy.
Would she let me kiss her? If it means that I'll be happy?
I didn't realize when I stopped messing around and just held her face in my hands. And I didn't even realize her puppy eyes looking at me so confused and waiting for me to say something.
I could only look in to the depth of her beautiful brown eyes that I seemed to get myself lost a lot more now. An ocean I wasn't afraid to dive in and drown. "You're pretty." I said, catching myself off guard but trying to act like nothing as Minji's eyes widened. My heart was racing threatening to burst out my chest.
"Says the one who's literally god's favorite." She said playfully, still not moving her face away, waiting for me to pull my hands back but I couldn't find myself to do such thing. I wanted to keep holding her.
I don't know what went through me but one of my hands slowly moved up and tangled itself in the thick strands of her black hair. Minji's eyes fluttering close instantly at the intimate touch. The thumb of my other hand caressed her cheek softly. She leaned in more to my touch and my heart couldn't handle it.
Her face looked so at peace. She felt so relaxed against my touch as if her worries and pains were lifted off her. And I'd truly wish for those to stay with me so that she could finally be at peace for once.
The sound of familiar voices snapped me out of this trance Minji had me in and I shot right back up. Not wanting to give them a scene that would start a riot inside the church.
Not everyone hated Minji, but most of them did. And I wouldn't want her to stand in the middle of it.
Me and Minji went back to doing what we were doing before. We had managed to give out the plates that were filled with delicious food. And we had also managed to act like nothing had happened. I knew that if I hadn't heard that voice, I would've kissed Minji. And I probably wouldn't have been able to let go of her if I did.
After dinner, my parents along with Minji's decided to spend some more time at church, catching up with their separate friends and what not. Which currently led me to be walking beside Minji who looked up at the stars that were scattered across the dark night.
As long as my parents don't find me here with her, I'll be fine. I wouldn't want them to go all crazy on her and hurt her feelings. They might never manage to see that she's human too.
"The stars are beautiful, they remind me of you." Minji suddenly said. I looked at her and then at the stars. It was getting a little chilly so I clung on to her and she welcomed me even more. Placing her hand over mine that was hooked on her arm. The gesture made me blush completely.
"Why?" I asked and she let out a thoughtful hum. "To begin with, they're beautiful just like you. And plus, I really like them but I like you more." Sometimes she says things without knowing the effect they had on me. My breath halted when I heard those words. She liked me more than the stars? Even when she devoted herself on reading about the stars, and having an intense passion to know more about them?
It's safe to say that my heart wasn't going to handle it much more.
"What do you think of me?" I asked and she stopped us from walking as she looked at me. "What's that question supposed to mean?" She asked and I let out a shrug, I'm not going to tell her that I want to know if she wants to kiss me too, even though it's best to be direct. And it'd stop me from being so anxious.
"Hm. I think that you're the most gorgeous woman on this earth with a heart made out of pure gold. That you hold more value than life itself." She said, taking a step closer to me and I could feel my heart racing as her eyes looked down at me with a look I've never seen before.
"That you're worth standing at the front door step of hell ready to give up everything." She said and I felt the air being knocked out of my lungs as she took another step closer to me. My hands reached out and placed themselves on her chest as I looked up at her.
Minji has never acted like this before and it was making my heart race.
Her brown eyes showed me the sincerity and honesty of her words. Showing me just how much she meant what she said. But what did it mean? What does she mean by that? Could it be what I'm thinking? Her hands carefully landed on my waist which sent heat rushing through me.
And what she said next had me crumbling in her hold.
"Loving you is worth it, even if it meant that my world would come crumbling down just for holding heaven in my arms."
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I wonder what Minji means? 👀🤔🤷🏻♀️
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