Hanni
"Minji, I don't feel so well." I tugged on Minji's arm, she turned to look at me with worried eyes. "Is something wrong with the food? Do you want to go to the bathroom?" Minji looked away from me and turned to look at her mom that was dotted across from me.
I was having breakfast with the Kim's once more, but I suddenly felt sick, like if I'm about to vomit. It wasn't because of the food because I love this food, and it's never made me feel this way.
"I just...I need to use the bathroom." And before I could even stand up, I started to gag and that's when I ran to the bathroom, not even looking back at whatever had fallen to the ground. "Hanni!" I barely managed to hear Minji call out for me.
I entered one of the many bathrooms in the Kim house and just started to throw up in the toilet. I could feel myself being drained as everything I ate just came back out.
I felt a pair of hands grab my hair, but it wasn't Minji's hands. "Are you okay?" It was Ms. Kim. I barely managed to nod before another wave of pure vomit escaped my mouth.
Ms. Kim just stood next to me, grabbing my hair to make sure it didn't get dirtied, patting my back to try and comfort me, talking to me ease down my anxiousness.
After I was finally done, I managed to stand up with her help. "I'm sorry, mom." I said and Ms. Kim waved me off. "Hanni, can I ask you something." I gave her a quick nod as I went to wash my now very pale face. What's wrong with me.
"When was your last period?" And I was taken back. "Two months ago." And Ms. Kim gave me a comforting smile. She opened one of drawers and took out a little box and gave it to me. "Take this." And my jaw dropped when I realized what it was, I could feel everything around me spinning.
"And whatever the result is, you have our support, Hanni. And we love you dearly, always remember that." And with that she gave me a pat on my shoulder and exited the bathroom.
I looked back down at my hands, seeing the box that will now determine my future. How was I so careless?
The door slammed open making me look up and there stood Minji, she looked stressed and very worried as she made her way to me. "Are you okay? Do I have to take you to the hospital? I can call your mom to meet us there?" Minji's voice sounded so strained as she cupped my cheeks.
I shook my head and brought up the box in my hands. She looked down visibly confused. "It's a pregnancy test, Minji. There's a chance I can be pregnant." Her eyes looked at me with surprise, and somewhere in the brown of her eyes there was a glint of happiness.
"Should I step out? I can bring you something?" I knew Minji could feel that my mood completely shifted, and I just felt bad because it wiped away any trace of happiness from her face.
"Yeah, a water bottle..please." Minji gave me a nod, hesitant to give me a hug but decided it was best not to. She gave me a small smile and walked away. Closing the door softly as she left.
What will I do now? If this test result positive everything will change. My mother doesn't even know that I'm in a relationship with Minji. I can't just go up to her and tell her that I'm pregnant by the one person she hates in this world.
I opened the box and took out the pregnancy test. I let out a sigh as I started to take it. I could feel my heart pumping in nervousness as I set the test down on the counter and waited.
Minji seemed to be so happy about the possibility of me being pregnant but why can't I feel that happiness too? I feel dread and agony. It's too early for me to be a mother, I can't possibly do this now.
But knowing I have Minji makes it a little worth it. Minji would never leave me alone in this, she always talks about how she can't wait to take care of me during my pregnancy. But that's for when we actually live together, if we even have the chance to.
We're both in our own homes with the eye of society surrounding us. My mother will go crazy if she finds out, I just can't do this to myself yet. This baby won't be born in a proper point in both my life and Minji's.
I took a deep breath and picked it up. And I felt my soul leave my body as I saw the two lines. I felt like fainting as my hands shake in agonizing fear. And as of it was a cue the door opened and Minji stood at the door frame. I looked up at her with tears in my eyes.
"I'm pregnant." Minji eyes widened in shock as this time she couldn't hide back the giant smile that was now plastered on her face as she made her way to me ready to hug me but I brought my hand out to stop her as I shook my head at her.
Minji's face fell hard and it broke my heart.
"You don't want to...have this baby?" She asked carefully and I didn't answer her. Minji leaned against the counter as tears formed in her eyes but she was trying so hard to blink back her tears. "I understand, it's not the moment." She said, and the way she said it just made me feel so much worse.
I know she wasn't doing it on purpose, she's literally having every emotion flash in her eyes, just trying to process this all too.
"Minji...my mother doesn't even..how do I even tell her?" I asked her and she looked up at me. "I'm not going to force you to have this baby, but I beg you to consider it, Hanni." She said as she stood back up and took a cautious step closer to me.
"You know that I love you, and that I'll be with you through anything. And if you decide that you don't want to have this baby, then I'll be right by your side." She said giving me a smile but her eyes expressed everything that she didn't dare to say.
"Hearing you say you're pregnant has been my dream, but I want you to say it with happiness too, Hanni. I can't be the only one happy, that'll be so selfish of me." She said, grabbing my hand.
"It's clear that this isn't what you want at the moment, but I just want you to heavily think this through before you make a decision. I want you to be sure about what you truly want. And whatever your decision is, you know I'll respect it." But how could she when I'll be taking her happiness away?
What am I going to do? I don't even know what I myself want. A part of me wants to have this baby so that me and Minji could be at the peak of our happiness, but then I don't want to have this baby because the other part of me doesn't want to jeopardize what I have with Minji right now. The moment I ever manage to tell my mom it will all break loose and I'd have to make a decision I don't want.
I don't know what to do! God, help me please. Show me what's the right decision for this. I beg you!
"Minji...I just need time. Give me time to think." I said as I took my hand away from her and Minji's eyes saddened so much. "Will you take long?" Minji asked.
"I don't know, Minji. I just need time to calm down and process all of this. I want to be alone!" I said suddenly snapping and Minji seemed taken back. I just feel so stressed and I don't mean to take it out on her.
She took a step back from me and gave me a bit of space. I looked at her with an apologetic expression but she wasn't even looking at me.
"If that's what you want, Hanni. I will always just be a text away from you. Just promise me to come back to me. And just remember that I will never force you to decide something you don't want, don't think about what I want, think about what you want." She said, finally looking back up at me again.
"I promise." I said and she gave me a nod. I went to her and looked at her for a split second her eyes not daring to look at me. I gave her cheek a quick kiss and walked away from her. Leaving her standing there in the bathroom.
What was I doing?
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GUYS PLEASE DONT COME AT ME! I promise that Hanni will make the right decision.
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