Hanni
"Good morning, Mrs. Kim!" I waved happily at the middle aged woman who stood at the front door of the Kim's house, a big smile on her face as I approached her. "Good morning, Hanni. Would you like to join us for breakfast? Minji had been insisting for me to catch you one day so you could eat with us." And at the mention of Minji I felt my cheeks starting to flush. Like they always did when I would hear Minji's name.
"Oh, uh, yeah, of course. I'll join you guys." I said a little too shyly and Mrs. Kim noticed as she welcomed me in to a hug. "Minji adores you, Hanni. I've never seen her eyes spark the way they do when she talks about you." Ms. Kim said as she walked us inside the house. I've been here countless of times but with what she told me, I could feel my heart racing the way it did when I first stepped foot here.
"Hanni!" Mr. Kim said happily as he sat down at the head of the table. And at the mention of my name Minji who was seated at the table turned to look at me. Her eyes widened as she clumsily stood up bumping her knee on the table, letting out a quiet groan as she now limped her way to me. I couldn't help but laugh a bit, she was one silly girl.
Mrs. Kim had left me there to talk to Minji and went to sit next to her husband. "Hey, Hanni." Minji said a little too shyly and I felt my cheeks heating up at how cute she looked. How couldn't my heart react to her? How couldn't the butterflies bloom inside my stomach whenever she was near me?
"Hi, Min. You okay?" I asked as I gestured to her knee and she waved me off even though it was obvious that she was in pain. "I'm okay, oh! Come sit with us, please? I promise we'll make it on time." Her eyes went puppy mode and I couldn't help but cup her cheeks and squish them.
"Of course, as long as we make it on time. We wouldn't want Ms. Han to send us to detention." I said with a slight giggle which Minji returned. She grabbed my hand and guided me to sit next to her, pulling out my chair for me. Her manners are the best thing about her.
"It's nice to have you join us this morning, would you like to say grace?" Mr. Kim asked me with a big smile on his face. I nodded at him and his smile on grew as he reached out to grab Minji's and his wife's hand. Minji grabbed mine under the table as she closed her eyes. I reached over for Ms. Kim's on the other side of the table. And with that I closed my eyes.
"In a world where so many are hungry, may we eat this food with humble hearts; in a world where so many are lonely, may we share this friendship with joyful hearts. Amen." And with that we all opened our eyes. Mr. and Mrs's Kim looked at me proudly as they quickly dug in to their breakfast. I looked over at Minji who still hadn't let go of my hand. "Minji?" I questioned and she turned to look at me confused but then I signaled her at our joined hands and she let out a cough as she abruptly let go of my hand. She murmured what seemed to be an apology and all I could do was giggle.
Even though my heart raced at the thought of her not wanting to let go.
Breakfast was quiet, it was a comfortable silence as we all enjoyed the food that one of the maids at the Kim house had made. My eyes had drifted to look at Minji, who peacefully ate her pancakes. Her cheeks were stuffed and I wanted to take a picture so bad but no phones allowed when eating! I didn't even realize the big smile that was on my face.
"Minji, slow down. You look like a hamster with your cheeks being so stuffed." Mrs. Kim said as she threw Minji a playful glare. Minji quickly swallowed and let out an apology with a sly smile on her face. I went back to eating as I realized that the clock was ticking and I didn't want us to get in trouble.
Especially Minji who the teachers seem to hold the biggest grudge against her and would use anything to get her in serious trouble.
After another ten minutes or so Minji and I were done and we were both heading out the door as Minji was behind me hopping on one leg trying to tie her shoe. "If you fall, I'm going to laugh so hard." I said when I turned around to look at her. She only let out a groan as she waved me off. My favorite thing in this world is teasing Minji.
I looked behind her to see both Kim's waving us goodbye. I waved back at them as Minji threw them a flying kiss. Minji opened the door on her side and got in and I did the same on my side. Once I sat down and turned the car on, I took a quick glance at Minji, who was invested on looking at her hands.
"You seem nervous." I said, placing my hand on her shoulder to snap her out of her thoughts. She turned to look at me with her doe eyes and I felt my heart fluttering with the way her eyes looked at me.
"Thanks for joining us today. I really liked having you over for breakfast." She said with a small smile. "I mean, your mom told me you've been insisting." And Minji let out a groan. "I can't tell my mom anything!" She said with a huff and I let out a laugh. "That's sweet of you though. Thank you." I said and she let out a sigh. "It's the least I can do to pay you back for all those good things you do for me. I'm sure our lord has something special for you because of your kind heart." She said with a smile.
I looked away from her with a blush as I put the car on drive and made my way to school. Minji was beside me humming some random tune as her fingers were her drumsticks. It was a cute sight that made me want to squish her cheeks and tell her how cute she looked. A giant smile made its way to my face.
But my smile dropped knowing that once we arrive to school, the mere resemblance of hell will await her with all of those kids that treat her so badly. Minji is so strong and I look up to her for that, because I know very well that I wouldn't be able to deal with all of those disrespectful words that leave these kids mouths.
Minji never asked for any of this. She just wants to make her parents proud and not ever have them feel regret for keeping her. And as I've told her a million of times. Her parents would never be disappointed for having such a wonderful daughter.
Minji doesn't see her value. But I do, I see so much more in her than she can imagine. A see a lot more than what I would like to admit. It can only bring me back to how wrong it is to feel something so forbidden for her. And at times I wish she knew, so that I didn't have to keep it inside my chest burning in hopes for her to turn the flame off with her love that a part of me dreads for.
Was it love that I felt for her?
I feared being in love with her, not because of the obvious reason, but because I've never felt love in that manner. At 19, I've know how to keep all of those things far away from me, but when I met Minji. All of that changed. I dreaded for it, I dreaded it from her.
I never wanted something so bad. I never craved the warmth from someone the way I do for Minji's warmth. My feelings for her went beyond my own comprehension and understanding. And that's what sent me to panic.
I was scared of what Minji would think, I didn't care about the world. They could view me as another sin, but Minji...I wouldn't be able to handle a bad reaction from her.
Because I want her to love me.
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