Hanni
Minji was never much of a jealous person.
She never had any doubts whatsoever, and she never let herself be influenced by anything that anyone says and just listens to me. Sometimes I am very grateful that she's just a very calm person who doesn't like to start problems with anyone.
But as you may know, we all have our limits. One doesn't act unless people cross the line of what you will and will not allow. And Minji is only human, and she can only tolerate so much.
It was Sunday, and once again me and Minji found ourself at church, enjoying a peaceful walk at the garden. We couldn't really be as lovey as we wanted to as tonight, other people also decided to take a stroll at the garden that I was getting used to only being with Minji.
But that didn't bother her, she talked and talked about the most random things and made me laugh and just made the moment so ours.
"Hanni!" Me and Minji both turned around to look at the direction of the voice, I squinted my eyes and saw a boy running to us. Once he reached us he looked over at Minji and then back at me. "Hanni, there's something I'd like to talk to you about, and if it's okay, can it be alone. He said, giving Minji a knowing look.
And a part of me sensed what he wanted to talk about, and not to sound offensive or anything but he was one of the boys at my school who's pride was bigger than them and a ego that you could never deflate no matter what.
"Jay...I'm spending time with Minji right now. Some other time?" There was definitely no other time but I just wanted to get him to leave. He was making me uncomfortable with the way he was looking at me. And I know Minji noticed it with how tense she was beside me.
"But it's important, we have to talk." He said, trying to reach out for my arm but Minji grabbed his before he could even touch me. "She said some other time, respect her wants." Minji said and Jay scoffed.
"Do you really prefer hanging out with this freak than a possible future boyfriend?" Jay scoffed as he turned to look at me as he tugged his arm away from Minji's grip. "Jay, don't call her that, and yes. I prefer hanging out with her because unlike you, she has the upmost respect for me. So please, just leave." And Jay shook his head as he turned to look at Minji.
"You're a freak, a misfit to our society, Minji. Hanni may prefer to be with you right now, but it's going to fade. You'll be alone like you deserve to be, devil's creation." And with that he threw us both a glare and left and I could feel my heart hurting when Minji just stood there.
"Minji?" She only turned to look at me, her eyes were so distant and I hated it. I wish I could stop people from saying all of those things. Minji just doesn't deserve this.
I wanted to hug her, I wanted to kiss her, I just wanted to comfort her in the way I knew best but I couldn't. "You know, despite what people say, I get a glimpse of you and everything vanishes. The pain and the shame disappears in to nothing. You're all my mind manages to think of." She said, a little smile on her face as her eyes were letting me in again.
"I surely don't deserve you, but I'm going to be selfish and keep you with me." She said, god, please make these people vanish so I could kiss her. She was always so good with words that it just melted me and my heart in to a puddle.
She says that she doesn't deserve me, but shouldn't I be the one who doesn't deserve her? People hurt her, and I could've been like them but she let me in to her heart, and I know for sure that a part of her feared that but her love for me was bigger.
"I don't know what it was that I felt when he came here, he was looking at you as if you were to be some woman for him to take. I didn't like that, not at all. How dare he? I don't even do that despite the fact that you're literally my girlfriend." She said with that cute frown on her face. I knew she was being serious but I just wanted to laugh.
She was right, we're three months in and not once have we tried to do anything sexual. Minji never looks at me with desire filled eyes, all she ever looks at me is with eyes that were just full of love for me. And I preferred that more to anything else.
I guess we both aren't interested in that at the moment even though yes, I am not stupid. Minji's body reacts to me all the time, but she never really acts upon it. If anything, she's really trying to respect my whole, no sex before marriage thing I told her about once.
But as time goes by, I start to realize that I may not have the time, or I won't even be able to experience a marriage with her. Our future is only a dream, it's not something we're sure of. Not as long as my parents don't know about my relationship with her.
"I want that." Huh? I looked at her confused, Minji looked around and then grabbed my hand and led me to what seemed to be the back of the church, no one ever goes there. "Okay, we can talk more freely here, and I can also finally do this." Next thing I knew she kissing me all over the face, her arms wrapping around my waist to hold me in place.
I could only giggle as I tried to pull away from her kissing torture that tickled me. After some seconds she pulled away from me. The same only loving smile on her face. "You look so beautiful when the moon shines above you." Minji said, her hand reaching up and tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.
Her eyes sparkled as she looked at me. God, does she love me that much?
"Listen, I know you said that you want to have sex after marriage but I don't think I can hold back anymore not being able to connect with you in that manner, I may seem impatient and what not, but I'm scared I'll never get to do any of that with you. I want you to be my first, Hanni. I want to be able to experience the wonders of love making with you." Is it possible that she can read minds?
"Minji..." I wasn't even able to tell her anything as she interrupted me. "I know what you're going to say, that I have to wait. And I hope you know I will, princess, I'll wait for you until you tell me that we can do such sacred thing. But I'm just letting you know how I feel. It's perfect between us, and I don't want you to think otherwise. I don't want you to change any of your beliefs for me, okay?" She said, kissing my cheek.
She's just so perfect, she puts my wants before her own needs and there's nothing more I could ever ask from her. She's giving me everything without hesitation.
And I understand where she's coming from, we have such a deep connection, but we've never connected when it comes to satisfying each other's needs. And somewhere deep inside me, yells at me to give Minji that sensation, to give her the pleasure that only I can give her. A part that yearns for her to take me up to the sky and keep me there.
"I overstepped your boundaries, didn't I? Love, I'm sorry, I thought that it was okay for me to tell you..." I didn't even let her finish what she was saying as I grabbed her face and pulled her down so that our lips could touch.
I want it all with her, even those things that are sacred to us. I know I'm about to break the promise I made to my mom years ago, but can you really blame me? Could god blame me for rushing?
My time with her is only timed and I wouldn't want us to be separated before we even get the chance to experience our first times with each other.
I wouldn't want it with anyone else, I want her.
Only her.
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