My Curvy Mate

Ch 8 Happy Birthday

*May's POV*

It has been a few days since I went to school. In just a mere few hours I will be eighteen. I have been sitting for the past few days at home alone staring at the four walls of my room. I felt somewhat peace in the silence of my room. I heard from Betty Joyce that Mona was suspended and that if she was caught bullying me again, she would be expelled. Not sure how that happened but I prayed the moon goddess has finally granted me happiness but getting rid of Mona. I feel alone in the world, no one to share the pain I am going through and only I am to suffer alone. I gave up and let myself go the past three days. No showering, no eating and no socializing. I was still required to complete class, so my professors emailed me the course work. I let my headmaster know I will be taking a week off of going to actual in-class learning. I felt bad for Betty J, I have been ignoring her texts and calls for the past four hours. She has been trying to coax me out of my room for our birthday ritual. Every year we would go to the movies and watch a romantic comedy and make fun of the movie in the back row. Every time we found love was made to be unrealistic, we would laugh and throw popcorn in the air. The best part was almost getting kicked out then trying to sneak into another movie. We felt that it was our obligation to teach people about the realities of love. I missed the good old days where I was carefree and felt like I was human. Now I feel like a hushed dog, and trash.

I heard a ring come through my phone. It was Betty J again, "Ey so do not bother me for the rest of the night. You are allowed three minutes to wish me happy birthday and I mean it" I said to Betty J before abruptly hanging up. It wasn't long before she was at my front door. She was carrying a balloon; one rose and a present. "Hey girl Happy Birthday!" Betty exclaimed. She wrapped her arms around me in the biggest bear hug I've ever seen. I did not want to admit that her hug warmed me up. "Hey", I said nonchalantly. Betty raises one of her eyebrows and hands me the balloon and the rose. She gets me the same gifts every year and I love that it is the only constant in my life. She then hands me the big bag and motions for me to open the gift. Inside I found a big teddy bear holding a heart that said Happy Eighteenth Princess Peach. I looked up at Betty and shed a tear. She knew what this meant to me and we hugged in silence. When Betty and I were younger I told her how my mother used to call me princess peach as my cheeks were peach shaped and soft. We used to laugh at that nickname... one I thought I would never hear again. "I know you miss her; we will get to the bottom of what happened girl. Do not cry" Betty J said while kissing my forehead. I knew she meant well but I did not want to talk about murder or even the scandal that happened at school. I was starting to feel the pit in my stomach of guilt and shame. "Thanks Betty but I think your three minutes is up" I said then walked to the door and opened it. "Promise me that you will call me tomorrow. You promised to go to the recruitment ceremony" she said with wide eyes. I forgot that I promised to attend this pack meeting. I have to go now since I told her a few day ago I would even though I do not want to anymore. "Sure, I will call you tomorrow" I said. Before I pushed her out the door she said, "and have fun with your wolf tonight, tell her Betty J says hi" she smirked and turned to leave. I shut the door and hugged my bear. Mom and dad, If you are up there just know your daughter is down here thinking about you.

I made my way back upstairs to finish my math homework for the week. I took the time to complete all daily tasks before the week was up. I needed time to think about the information I had gathered and how to find my parents murderers. I shuttered at the thought. Just then I got a notification reminding me of the Sundance recruitment ceremony happening tomorrow. I get it. The Universe is trying to tell me to just shut up and go to this ceremony. The invite said to dress semi-causal. Whatever that means. I put down my pencil and rested my notebook on my table. I was just about to sleep for the evening when I got flashbacks of Mona on top of me. How she dominated me and made me feel weak. I started to cry. I do not want to live a life like this, a life in fear. I sat in the far-left corner of my room beside my window and cried. I fell asleep in the corner long after. It was 11:59pm. One minute to go. I started to panic again. I did not want to live; I did not want to see what tomorrow brings. I cannot do this anymore it is not fair I did not pick this life to live. I was looking for anything sharp to pierce my skin. I scanned the room and saw my pencil on the table beside my notebook. I cannot go back to this school nor face my friends I was a coward. I was picking up the speed with my thoughts. I held the pencil in my hand, maybe I should just use it as a blade in my weakness- 3,2,1 the clock struck 12pm. I was just about to break skin when I heard a voice. No Alpha, you are too strong for these foolish mind games. I scanned the room it was just myself. "Who said that?" I asked aloud. Your wolf, I share one mind and soul with you. We are strong Alpha warriors. You are a strong half-blooded Alpha do not forget your heritage May. My wolf was talking to me, in my struggle of darkness and despair I found my light. I smiled lightly as tears released from my eyes. I felt the pain lift away as I was not so alone anymore. I dropped the pencil on the floor and watched it roll away. Get up, let's go for a run my wolf said. I stand up and brush my legs from sitting on the floor for so long. I made my way downstairs and out the door.