impacts - Ashton Irwin

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ANNABELLE'S POV

I woke up sleeping on Ashton's arm to the noise of stumbling up the stairs and laughter. I rubbed my sleepy eyes as Ashton yawned and looked at me.

"You alright?" His croaky voice rung through my ears.

"The boys are home, what time is it?" I saw as I yawn. Ashton again yawns too and checks his watch.

"1:00am."

My blood boils as the 3 drunk messes pile into Finn's room.

"Sorry dearest's, we uh, went to the barrrrr." Calum slurs as he giggles obnoxiously. My eyes stare at Luke with deathly rays.

"And you fucking drove home?!" My voice raises. Calum remarks by shaking his head furiously. And a weight feels like it is lifted off my shoulders.

"Michael did though." I lift my head up and glare at Michael who is sitting on the floor trying to focus his blurry eyes.

Tears brim in my eyes, "You all could of caused a fucking accident, someone could of died, someone that was innocent, like a person driving home to see someone they love and you could've ruined that because you're all fucking intoxicated. Get.. Out." I choke on my own tears as I feel Ashton's hand my back.

Luke tries to speak, "Anna, we're sorry we just got carried away, but we're safe now."

"How dare you drive home drunk when your best friend died in an accident because of some drunk? Get out. All of you, you don't deserve to be here." I snap angrily.

They all look heartbroken and Michael and Luke walk out, closing the door. Calum drops to the ground and crawls into the fort as I rest my head back on Ashton.

"I'll plait your hair for you?" Calum says apologetically. He is so cute sometimes, but him and the others have made me so upset.

"Just get some sleep Cal, okay?" Ashton whispers, his voice is so soothing. Calum breathes in and breaths out, using my leg as a pillow. I feel Ashton chuckle as he looks at Calum, his chest vibrating underneath my head. I find myself smiling and Ashton catches me.

"What're you smilin' at huh?" He smirks. I look up to him as he looks down, our lips only a movement apart, and I can feel his hot breath against my lips. He doesn't move and neither do I, I just capture his green eyes.

I break the tension and snuggle into his chest. I don't know what the hell is going on in my head right now but all I know it I'm enjoying it.

He pulls the blanket over us both, his build longer than mine so the blanket covers my entire body up to my neck and his up to his torso where my head lies. He kisses my head which sends immediate shivers down my back. Instincts kick in as I re-wrap my arm around his and he responded by putting his hand on my lower thigh, massaging his thumb in circles.

I inhaled a deep breath I felt his heartbeat and felt his chest rise then collapse at a perfect pace. I thought to myself, 'Is this what it's like to be happy again?'

2 hours later, I am screaming. Clenching the sheets and my hair flapping everywhere, in hysterical tears. One word, nightmares. They fill my head almost every night. Fear bursts through my system as I find myself trying to escape wherever I am. And although I'm half awake, I barely notice Ashton trying to calm me down - panic spread across his entire face. As soon as my eyes open wide and I see his staring at me full of worry, my entire body going from tense to every single muscle collapse and relax. I don't even know what even made me feel so safe, but I did as his strong arms caressed me. I felt his warm lips press against my cheek as it turned rosy red. No words were spoken, I just drifted back to sleep with Ashton reoccurring in my mind, over and over.