The 2 Assassin's

chapter 19

Yall I know I've been updating a lot. Ive been bored. Im grounded so i have nothing else to do. shit I don't even know if anyone's even reading this but if anyone is reading this hi, are you liking the story so far? I want honest opinions please :) I won't get butt hurt I promise

Killuas POV
"Annaka Betz?" I heard someone call, I looked up for the first time in hours, seeing a doctor. I stood up immediately, then followed everyone else. "She's out of surgery, she gave a few scares but she's going to be fine. She is, however, in a medical induced coma. Just to help her wound heal more properly."

I sighed in relief silently, "Can we see her?"

"Of course, follow me," he responded. He led us to her hospital room. "Go ahead and go in."

I immediately walked in, sitting in the chair right beside her, the Chairman sitting on the other side chair. Everyone else standing beside the bed. She had so many injuries, it was painful to look at. Leorio ran out of the room once he saw her, maybe to throw up, I don't know. I don't blame him. She was almost unrecognizable. Her face swelled. The blood on her previously gone. The cuts and bruises cleaned and still there. The more life threatening wounds sewed up. She had bandages wrapped around parts of her body. Her legs, arms, stomach, her head. I teared up a little, but pushed the tears back. She wouldn't want us to cry.

I reached out to hold her hand, I wanted her to know I was there. I hesitated, and pulled my hand back down to my lap.

I could feel their eyes staring at me as I looked at her. I felt like if I looked up, I would start balling, so I didn't, I kept looking at her. The Chairman looked up from her to look at me.

"You're blaming yourself aren't you," he asked, I nodded, I didn't trust my voice right now. "This isn't your fault. It isn't hers. It isn't Gon's. It isn't Kurapika's. It's no one except her dad. And I'm ashamed that he's my son."

"If I had just stayed there, maybe she wouldn't have left," I mumbled, my voice cracking.

"Killua," he said. "Look at me." I looked up from Annaka to look at him. "This is not your fault." I looked back at her, I nodded. I still felt like it was my fault. After all, I had been with her last night. When did she leave? Was it after I left? How long did she have to suffer before we found out? If I had followed my gut, maybe she wouldn't have had to stay there for so long. She wouldn't have had to suffered for so long.

I reached out my hand and held her hand. I could've swore I felt her squeeze my hand slightly. No, im just imagining things. After a few hours of just sitting there, holding back tears, I stood up. "I'm going to go get some coffee or something. Any of you want anything?"

"Coffee," kurapika replied.

"Tea," Gon said.

"Coffee for me too," the Chairman responded.

Leorio had gotten back a couple hours ago, he shook his head.

"Gotcha, I'll be back," I said. I walked out, I went straight to the bathroom, and let the tears out. I sobbed, sitting on the bathroom floor like a child that lost their parents in a mall. I was scared, what if she didn't wake up? Is there a chance of that happening? Am I just overthrowing? Am I being dramatic? After a few minutes of crying, I stood up. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like a mess. Puffy eyes, hair more messy than usual. I washed my face before walking out of the bathroom and walking to the hospital cafeteria. They had their own coffee pot and tea maker in the back corner so I made my way there. I made a coffee for Kurapika and the Chairman, and a tea for Gon. I also made myself a cup of coffee. I like my coffee sweet so I put in the sugar. I left Kurapikas and the chairman's coffee black since I forgot to ask them how they liked their coffee. I tried a sip of my coffee, deciding to add a little more sugar. Once I was done, I walked back to Annakas room. When I arrived at the door, I took a deep breath, and walked in. I handed them their drinks and sat back down in my chair, keeping my head down the entire time.