The Spring of Love & Heartbreak

Friday Night Lights Part I

Todays the day, and I'm running on no sleep. I tossed and turned all night long. Feeling like I ran a marathon or maybe got hit by a bus in my slumber. Who knows.

Steve left- who knows when in the early morning. I think I pushed him off of my bed, in what little sleep I did get. He was snoring so loud. Now being alone, in the quiet makes everything feel hollow. I should be so excited today, it's our first official date. I am happy, but my emotions are so jumbled this morning after getting no sleep.. Thankfully the date isn't until tonight, and maybe I could fall back asleep to get a few more hours. The sleep would help this headache forming in the middle of my forehead and help me not be as bitchy.

I lay back down in bed.. And then someone knocks on my door. Why? I just want sleep. I need it. I crave it. It needs me. I sigh, "Yes?" that came out with more attitude then I was attending. I sit up in bed and see mom come into the room with a cup of coffee. "How you doing today?" Her bright red lips and her squinting smile. She then looks at my hair, hands me the coffee while chuckling. "Never mind. I see that you didn't get any sleep last night."

I sip on my coffee, praying to the coffee Gods to bless me with energy today. A girl needs it today. I glance up to mom as she takes a seat on my bed, and trying to smooth my hair down.

"So any plans today or are you just going to go back to sleep?" She asks, giving me those adorning eyes. It's always like looking in a mirror when I look at her.

"Yes." I take another sip. "Sleep maybe first. Then date later."

She smiles, "Eddie finally asked you out I take it?" She crosses her arms against her mauve colored blouse. "Where is he taking you?"

"How do you know it was Eddie, maybe it was some other hot guy?" I grin and roll my eyes into a smile- that matches her. "But tonight to the skating rink. That's why he got me the skates. To practice so I don't embarrass myself in front of other people."

"Well that was nice of him to do that." Another smile that fades into a sigh, "Do I need to have the talk now with you since I won't see you tonight?"

I choke on my coffee, almost spitting it at her. "Mom! No! I know. Jesus." I wipe my chin. "I don't plan on doing any of that with him tonight." I shiver and shake my head. "Let's not talk about this."

"I just want to make sure you're safe about it. Do you know how to use a con-."

"Mom please stop." I put my hand up. "Yes I know how to use... that. And I know to be safe. Jesus did you have this same talk with Steve?"

"Wel-"

"No." I plug my ears, "I don't need to know that either."

She shakes her head and rolls her eyes, "You always were the one for dramatics. Just be smart, okay? I'll leave it at that." She offers, looking like a defeated mom.

"Yes I will be." I take another drink, "But does this mean he can't go or I can't go on that trip?"

"No you both can go. I'd rather him be there if something happens with you again." She allures to it without saying it.

"You mean my powers going haywire because I'm having a melt down?" I say it for her.

"I wasn't going to say it like that- but yes." She nudges me, "More like a nuclear meltdown. I still have to have someone come out and look at that wall and see if you cause any structural damage." She peers at me.

"I'm sorry I never apologized for that. So- I'm sorry." I cower a little, caving into myself and drinking more coffee.

"You don't need too. If anything I should be apologizing to you about all of that." She attempts a smile, but I can see the frown forming and the watery eyes.