Book 2 to The Summer of Love & Heartbreak. Go read that first.
She survived the night- or did she? She wakes up a changed person after she couldn't save Billy. How will she keep going on? Move on without him?
Her pain is like the wind; uncontrollab...
The school is really going all out this year for it, and I should be going with the prettiest girl in the school but my dumbass ruined that one. In the one class we have together, she refuses to acknowledge me at all. Jason and Ryan make sure I don't get within 5 feet of her. Both of them acting like how I would think Steve would react.
I wonder what Steve thinks?
She had to of told him.
She doesn't keep things from him. Out of everyone, that's her steady rock in her life.
I've lost some weight, and everything seems dull lately. Food doesn't taste the same and even my weed taste mid. Nothing that brought happiness before her is doing it for me anymore.
Everywhere I look, I see her. I smell her.
I see her in my bed and I see her in my dreams.
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I wonder how she's doing?
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Brook
Life sucks lately.
But Jason, our growing group of friends are trying to make me happy and forget about... him.
Nancy even offered to host a girl's night. Her, Chrissy, Celine and Addison and myself.
Which is tonight, and I wish I told her no. Celine told us that we couldn't drive to school which was a weird request, so none of us did. Steve took Nancy and I to school, them talking after I get out of the car.
They're both worried.
I smile less, and laugh less.
Owen has taken notice- and he's worried.
But I'll be fine eventual.. Won't I? This type of pain isn't the same kind of hurt I felt with Billy. I'll never see him again, but with Eddie. I still see him at school; trying to act all tough like I never existed.
Which really hurts.
After everything... everything. He was there for ALL of that.
But this is what breaks us?
I can blame myself for half of it, but he had to take accountability on his half. His ego got in between us. Or lack of one. See that's the thing I can't understand.
Billy didn't care that other guys were around me- other than Jason and his friends. He didn't get mad with me, or angry with me. He would smile and whisper 'that's my girl.'
He had this weird kink, that he had something that no one else could get. Me. He made me laugh, cry with him and pushed my buttons when he could. But it was all in fun.
