Luna

17

Josh moved closer to me as he cupped my cheek and pressed his forehead to mine, "Take your time baby." He moved away slightly before placing kisses down my neck and across my shoulder, avoiding my special place.
Pulling away, I took a deep breath, "I wanted you to be the very first to see, so I never let my mom translate it for me."
His eyes widened in surprise, "Really?"
"Yeah but I need to explain it to you first."
He stiffened and stood up a little straighter.
"Okay, well...It's the mark of Goddess, saying I am hers."
"Mine." He growled and bared his canines and grazed them along my neck.
Taking a step back my heart was racing, "Yes. Only yours. I didn't mean it like that."
His eyes widen and he took another step back shaking his head, "Sorry."
Moving to his side, I rest a hand on his bare chest, "It's okay, I'm not very good at this."
"You're better than you think."
Blushing, I shook my head and continued, "Before I show you, I want you to understand why it's so secretive, so personal. This information can't be shared with anyone Josh. Not Kyle, not the elders, not even Bailey. It has to stay between the two of us."
He nodded and eyes widened in curiosity. I could get lost in those big green eyes.
Taking a deep breath once again, I looked at my feet before finding his gaze again. "It's the only way to kill a Luna, to kill me."
His heart literally stopped and he began to shake, "What?"
"Destroy my mark, you kill me." I forgot to mention it had to be silver that destroyed my mark but he already seemed ready to explode that I didn't want to add to the fire.
He stepped away from me as his canines came out and his frame began to blur.
"I'm safe Josh. You'll keep me safe."
He seemed to calm down with my words.
"You promised to keep my secret."
He snapped out of his trance and pulled me tight against his chest, "Of course I'll keep your secret. No one will ever so much as touch you."
My heart ached for him and I nestled closer. He easily scooped me up and sat down, resting me on his lap. Burying his face into the crook of my neck he took a deep, calming breath and I could feel his anger melt away. As he relaxed, I shifted in his lap.
"Tell me what you think?" I moved my braid over my shoulder and shifted in his lap so my back was facing him.
He gripped tight to my hips as he gasped, "May I touch?"
"S-Sure."
His hand ran up my spine before it brushed over the first mark. He gasped and pulled away, "It...It shimmers."
"Only for you, because your my mate."
"What does it mean?" He touched it again and desire pulsed through me.
"Explore. Protect. Transform."
This time, he leaned over and pressed his lips to the middle mark, "Beautiful." He whispered as he kissed the other marks. My body ached with desire as lust took over me, as a moan escaped my lips. His touch sent of wave of electricity though me. I had never wanted him so badly before. Without thinking, my body moved without me. Turning in his arms, I straddled him as I shoved him back against the seat. His eyes widened in alarm as his hands found my hips.
"What?"
I silenced him, crushing my lips to his - letting him feel all my desire, my need. He eagerly caught on and fought for dominance but Goddess wasn't letting him have it. Nipping at his bottom lip, he complied and gave me access. As our tongues tangles together, my hips rolled forward. I could feel my canines coming out, as I moved to his neck and let them run along his sensitive spot.
Josh growled and pulled away from me. His eyes widened and he shook his head.
"Not that I don't love this side of you, I'd rather our first time be with only you."
"What?" My breath was heavy.
His thumb ran over my cheekbone, "You're eyes are white and silver."
As he spoke, I could feel Goddess' power leave but lust was still all I could feel. "Sorry." I stood and took a step back from him, trying to clear my mind. "She really wants you."
He chuckled, "I could tell."
My cheeks blushed, "You make it very hard to stay in control."
He looked distant, "I know the feeling."
"Sorry."
He looked at me, his green eyes sad. "What's stopping you?"
My heart ached. He didn't know what it meant to be with me. He didn't know how it would change him. I couldn't mark him or be with him, without knowing everything. But I couldn't find it in myself to tell him. I didn't want to scare him away. "I just want to get to know you best."
He could tell I was hiding something from him, I saw it in his eyes. He nodded, "I don't want to lose you, so I won't push for whatever you're afraid of. I hope it's not me - I could never hurt you. I've seen what it can do to a person to lose their mate."
My heart ached, I needed to be in his arms. "Can I..." Before I could finish my request, he opened up his arms and I quickly dove into him - resting against his chest. "I'm all yours Josh. Only yours."
He frowned and looked down at me, not believing me. His stone face came back and my heart sunk.
"You don't believe me."
He shrugged and held me closer to him, "My wolf is being difficult."
"What's he saying?"
"I don't want to tell you."
I smiled, "I'll tell you what mine says about you."
He smirked, "She talks about me?"
"It's all she talks about these days."
He half laughed, "Okay but don't get upset?"
"Promise."
"He says that if you really were only mine, you would wear our mark."
My wolf purred inside me. He's right. You know we need it. Him marking us won't hurt.
I knew she didn't mean it won't hurt physically but that it won't hurt either of us if he doesn't know everything about marking. It was only me marking him that would change him. She was right, he could have me, all of me, I just couldn't have him yet. My wolf whimpered at that thought.
Josh nudged me, "What does she think about that?"
"She says, 'He's right. You know we need it. Him marking us won't hurt.'"
He turned me around in his arms, "Are you afraid of me hurting you?"
If I was being honest, a little but that wasn't what he was asking me. He wanted to know if that's why I was hesitant before, but I could just focus on what is in front of me and ignore my Luna insight. "A little."
"I would never hurt you intentionally. It won't hurt for long, just at first and then...you know, fireworks and electricity."
"I want to wear your mark."
He moved back, looking at me confused and unsure. "You mean?"
"I mean...." I moved my hair aside and smiled shyly, "Whenever your ready." My heart was racing, I could stop myself from marking him back. I had to.
He growled and his eyes went black, "Don't tease."
"No teasing, no joking, I'm yours." I turned my head to the side.
His grip on me tightened and he ran his nose down my neck, his hot breath brushing along my skin, raiding goose bumps. He placed a soft kiss on my spot, making me whimper.
"This will only hurt for a second." His lips tickled as he spoke against my skin. I could feel his canines on my skin before he sunk them deep into my neck. No pain, not even for a second. The most intoxicating pleasure took over me, I moaned and pulled myself closer to him desperately. His teeth moved deeper as one of his hands tangled in my hair and the other gripped my back. Our wolves purred together.
My canines came out and Goddess urged me to claim him, she needed him safe, needed to know he would be able to keep us safe. My wolf agreed, she growled at me. Take him, mark him. Mine.
I couldn't. He didn't know what it would bring him, how it would effect him. My eyes bled as I fought off my wolf and Goddess. I had never done this before, fought with them. It felt so wrong and hurt, but it was the right thing to do. His canines pulled out and he kissed my new mark.
"Mine." He purred as he licked the blood clean from my neck. "Are you o..." He froze as he pulled away and saw my blood tears. "What happened?"
My desire to mark him dulled as he pulled away and I shook my head, wiping away the blood. "I'm fine. It didn't hurt at all." I pressed my forehead to his and closed my eyes, enjoying the connection we had. "You feel me."
He chuckled without hummer, "Yet you still don't feel me." He was sad about that, I could feel it.
"Wasn't sure if you were okay with me marking you."
He looked at me skeptically, "Why wouldn't..."
Before he could give me permission and I had to either tell him or deny him, I shrugged, "Just think about it. Maybe when we finish the process you'll let me." I wiggled my eyebrows playfully seductive.
He chuckled but was still looking sad, "When will that be?"
"For me to know and you to find out."
He laughed and rolled his eyes, "I should get you home. You need sleep after the day you've had."
"Sounds good to me." I yawned as I took a bite of a strawberry.
He nodded and moved away, starting up the engine. I needed to tell him and soon.