Always? Forever.

Confusion

      Everything is quiet. Silence is the first thing I notice when I wake up. Other than a dull beep that continues on and on. Once I'm finally able to open my eyes I can make out that it's a heart monitor and I'm surrounded by white walls. This is a hospital. I can feel my breathing pick up and the panic set in. Why am I here? I sit up quickly and cry out in pain. I feel wounds on my back rip open and start to bleed. There's an oxygen mask on my face that I rip off and tumble out of the small hospital bed. I have to get out of here. I need to find Gon and Killua. But before I can get up I start throwing up blood. It's disgusting and burns my throat. I suck in a huge breath through my nose and feel a nose bleed begin.

I can't stop the coughing and fall onto my side into the fetal position. But out of the corner of my eye I see another hospital bed. Gon. That must be him. I will myself to get up and crawl to his bed. I'm able to get to my feet and see him. Well, what's left of him. His body has basically shriveled up like a raisin. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes and I grab his bandaged hand. How could I let this happen? I was so blinded by my own emotions and now Gon is paying for it. I coughed into my hand and stumbled away from his bed. There was a viewing window across from me and I saw a person walk past it.

I'm sorry Gon but I can't stay here or give you the help you need. I pulled off the thing on my finger that was keeping my pulse and noticed my arm was bleeding from where my IV was ripped out. A small alarm started ringing at the loss of my heartbeat and people began running past the window. I ignored it and left the room, steadily gaining mobility. I heard people from my left and went right instead. Within minutes I found an emergency exit and left the building. To my surprise it was a building in the actual Hospitals parking lot. There were people waiting outside and a fancy limo soon pulled up to the front door. Killua stepped out of the vehicle and he was holding a girl. She seemed to be sleeping.

What I assume was a doctor ran outside and started frantically talking to Killua. Surprisingly no one noticed me. I could see Bisky and Palm in the distance. Along with Canary from the Zoldyck mansion. I contemplated running to one of them but I pushed the idea aside. I'm just going to have to find a way back to the Hunters association from wherever I'm at and get Gramps. I started making my way through the parking lot but I caught a couple glances from random people. Obviously I would, I'm bleeding a lot and I'm in a hospital gown. But so far I've yet to be stopped. Somehow I was able to wave down a taxi. Now, I can't pay for this ride but the driver doesn't know that. Apparently we were already in Yorknew and it was a short drive to the association.

I quickly ran from the taxi before my payment method could be called into question. My running was really bad and I was stumbling a lot. I just have to get home. The association building was like it always had been, only, there were guards outside the doors. I furrowed my brows and stopped in front of them. "What's going on? Let me in." It was two very large men who smirked to each other and looked down at me. I knew that look. How could I protect myself in this state? Does my nen even work right now? My question was answered when I tried to use Windbreaker and the men were shoved back. They crashed into the doors, effectively knocking them off of their hinges.

The two men, now unconscious, layed on top of the door's leading into a mostly dark room. Light flooded into the room and blinded most people. I quickly stepped on top of the men and looked down at the bottom of the room. There was a collection of odd looking people seated at a well lit stage. But there was one person I recognized. "Gon!" I'm not Gon? He's in the hospital. But I turned at the sound of footsteps and there stood Gon. And he was..... Perfectly fine. "Leorio!"  Gon jumped and Leorio ran to catch him, sobbing his eyes out. I was so confused. A few people stared at me despite the drama on the stairs below me. What's going on? I just want my grandpa. I spotted an exit at the bottom of the room and figured the would take me to the normal lobby. I ran down the stairs and passed Leorio who called out to me.

      I'm so lost right now. What's even going on? I slammed the door open and ran into the lobby, then straight into an elevator. I huffed out lots of blood onto the reflective elevator floor as boring music played. When the doors opened I stumbled into Bean's office where he sat solemnly, staring at a picture I couldn't see. "Beans.." I croaked "where's Gramps, is he busy right now?" I swallowed the blood the was bubbling up in my throat. He just looked up at me with an astonished expression and teared up. "What the hell.." I mumbled and walked into Gramp's office. Unfortunately it was empty. Completely empty. All of his furniture and pictures. All that was left was his wooden desk.

     Not the bean bags I used to flop on or the tv we played just dance on. Not the picture of us from our night of watching bubble guppies. I heard small footsteps behind me and Beans walked in, crying. What I didn't see when I walked in was a picture of Gramps by the doorway. It had two small black drapes over it. Oh. No, no, this isn't right. Those are only used for memorials and memorials are only for people who are dead. Gramps can't be dead. I saw him that night before his fight with the King. He can't be dead. The elevator rang behind Beans and Killua walked out, holding the same girl on his back. I slowly sank to my knees at the realization. "Beans, where's Grandpa?"