𝑨𝒍𝒑𝒉𝒂 𝑳𝒐𝒈𝒂𝒏

𝕱𝖔𝖗𝖙𝖞 𝕾𝖎𝖝

ᒍᑌᒪIᗩᑎ

𝗪𝗘 𝗚𝗢𝗧 𝗧𝗢 the library and I felt safer. Cain grabbed my wrist and I tugged away. I know he's going to fish for answers and I cannot give it to him. Not now. I just want to be away from it all. And I could do that here.

"Could you talk to me?" He pleads. I paced myself up the stairs to make me a batch of my herbs. If I drink I'd drink myself into a deep depression.

I grabbed spices upon reaching and set them down. "Julian please, just talk to me." No answer. "Julian. Julian?"

"Just be here Cain!" Silence. "I don't want to talk about it okay?" My voice cracked and again that thing my eyes did. Formed tears. "Not right now." I went back to grabbing spices and once all was gahered I began mixing them together. Cain said nothing after that.

Not even thirty minutes later when I had finished my brew and began smoking on the bean bag in the living room. I'm glad we didn't stay here. This is my safe place. I'm barely home anyways. I don't care what happens there.

But Dasher worries me just as much as he angers me. I blame Logan. No, I blame myself. I could've gotten any other vampire but it had to be him of all people. I should've never cracked the seal, or asked him that for in the first place. And now I'm stuck with a vampire I don't want near me at all.

Maybe I should've killed him. But I forgot about him for a while. Just a bit.

Cain took a seat next to me finally and I blew smoke. "Your heartbeat speeds up when you think about him...so stop thinking about him." He whispers. I sighed, pushing my hair back.

Maybe I should dye it and cut some of it off. Go for a different look. We sat there in silence for who knows how long. My eyes drift to my hand, the writings and marks being clear as day. I don't even want to raise my shirt and see.

"You're stressing yourself out." He says softly. "You have nothing to worry about anything or anyone when you're with me." To be honest...hearing him talk made me feel better. I set my head on his shoulder and sighed. I feel safe when I'm with him.

"Kiss me." He says. I looked up at him and I finally showed a reaction.

"What?"

"It wouldn't hurt...right?"

I shook my head. "I guess not." He leaned in, placing a simple peck on my lips. That was it. Just a peck. A simple kiss. I just stared at his lips. He smiled.

"What the heck are you staring at me for?"

"I hate you. You make me feel weak and stuff. I don't like weakness very much." I looked back in his eyes.

"Everyone's got something they can't handle." Cain touched my chin. "You'll be alright. I promise."

"I get that you're trying to look out for me Cain, but I wont be fine. Dasher's back which is my stupid fault for even recruiting him just because the dog barked at me. I should've known better, but I...I brought him back into my life for a war that's not even mine. And who cares what happens to me?"

"I do. I care. And I'll talk to Logan, tell him that we don't need Dasher."

"Cain you don't get it...I owe him."