"Wow! You look... nice" I look up at Travis from my lounging position on his sofa and then drop my book to the floor so I can take him in properly
"Nice... you want to take me to bed nice or nice you want to pat me on the head and feed me cake?"
"Definitely the first. It's different... it's good"
Gone are Travis' ripped jeans, tight T-shirt and eye makeup and in their place is a black vest, black skinny jeans and a pair of black Chelsea boots he looks like a completely different person but he looks good, his muscular arms are completely on show as is most of his chest and I can't help but drool, and then panic
Tonight is the wrap party for the new Particular Taste album, everyone that is anyone in the music industry is going to be there, it's being spoken about as if it's the music event of the year only I'm not going.
I've waited all week for Travis to invite me, even being silly enough to buy a new dress just in case but it's 2 hours until the event begins which means it's safe to assume I'm not invited.
Travis is going alone even though I know he was able to take a plus one and that stings my heart and has alarm bells ringing in my head
My first thought is obvious...
He isn't taking me because he wants to be free to meet other girls and then my second thought is I'm a terrible girlfriend to doubt him like that and then my third thought is there will be alcohol there and Travis becomes a loose cannon when he drinks
"Lost in my hotness or lost in your thoughts?" He asks whilst sitting next to me and letting his gaze move over my face,obviously looking for an answer to his question in it
"The hotness obviously" I giggle but he frowns and then runs a long finger over my jaw
"You'd tell me if there was something wrong right?" I nod "You've been quiet"
I know I should tell him what's on my mind, ask him why he didn't invite me and tell him how scared I am that he will get drunk and forget all about me but instead I just smile and tell him that there's nothing wrong
"You worry me some times" he admits before kissing the tip of my nose
"I'm going to have a bath and then curl up in bed with a book, enjoy your night, I hope it's a huge success" I wrap my arms around his neck and feel the sting of tears.
Travis has been nothing but good to me since we got together, he's done nothing to make me insecure or jealous but if that's the case why am I hugging him as though I'm saying goodbye to him?
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I'm sitting at a table with the rest of my band and their dates and can't help but think it's funny that I'm the only one here with an actual girlfriend but I'm also the only one sitting alone
Anwar, Gabe and Tom are accompanied by three blonds that I have never seen before but one of them has already started running her shoe up and down my shin, an action that feels so wrong that I move to the opposite side of the table to escape her
I take out my phone and check my messages.
Nothing from Taylor.
No good luck
No goodnight
No I miss you...
Just nothing and that has my stomach churning. If it wasn't for the fact the her father is in jail awaiting trial I would be in full panic mode and ditching my own wrap party
"So where's your girl?" Asks Gabe with a smug look on his face as he pulls the blond tightly against him "You haven't ditched her already have you"
This fucker is walking a very fine line with me after his previous antics with Taylor so I just grit my teeth and sip my beer. Usually by now the nervousness and excitement for the night ahead would have kicked in and I'd be throwing the beer back like there's no tomorrow but wasted Travis in unpredictable and Taylor doesn't deserve him, she deserves me... sober and in control of my actions
"We thought she'd be here for sure, or are you scared the paps will get you together and the entire rock world will turn on you"
Gabe is about two seconds from eating his buck-fuckin-teeth but suddenly my phone buzzes
Taylor!
She's posted something on Instagram
I swipe manically at my phone trying to see it before anyone else does
It's a selfie...
towel around her hair, her eyes heavy with a lust only I have witnessed in the flesh as she pouts her beautiful, plump lips
Fuck she looks beautiful
This is her first post since the shit went down with her dad and within a few minutes she has hundreds of thousands of likes. The comments are loving and supportive and I know she'll be touched by the kindness and suddenly I wish I was there to share the moment with her
"So how come you didn't bring her?" This time it's Anwar speaking and his voice hits somewhere different to Gabes and for the first time I wonder why the fuck I didn't bring her.
Why am I sitting here alone, desperate to be with her whilst she sits alone in my house posting lonely selfies
"I uh..."
"Didn't she want to come? I mean it's a huge event after everything she's been through and I know you guys aren't official yet"
"We are official" I snap "She's my girlfriend"
"I meant with the press"
"Oh"
"So?"
"I... I don't know, I didn't ask her"
Anwars face crumples in confusion
"The biggest night of your career and you didn't ask her? Wasn't she pissed?"
Was she?!
She has been a bit quiet today and lost in her thoughts.
Was it because I didn't invite her?
Did she want me to invite her?
Should I have invited her?
Fuck!!!
Of course I should of invited her!!!
I rest my head in my hands feeling like the biggest dick in the world.
She's my girlfriend, this is my night, of course she would want to be here with me, of course I want her here
"How long until this thing kicks off?" I ask Andrew our manager
"45 minutes until we start the album"
I jump out of my seat and head to a quiet area grabbing my phone and swiping to Taylor's number, she answers almost immediately as though she was waiting for my call
"Yay, baby, I'm so sorry" she's silent as though she doesn't understand what I'm apologising for "I should have invited you tonight, I don't know why I didn't, I don't know what I was thinking, please, it starts in 45 minutes, it's a 15 minute drive from my house can you get here? I don't care what you wear, how you look I just want you here, I want you with me"
