Awake

Chapter 19

It took a while for Zhan to finally recover from everything he experienced in the shower. As for Yibo, as soon as he was done getting dressed, he went to the kitchen to make something to eat.

He wanted to give Zhan space and not make him super aware of all his movements. Zhan is new at this, and because he kept his curiosity about this topic at a minimum, Yibo didn't want to scare him.

Also, he didn't want to show Zhan how turned on he was because he knew Zhan would feel bad about not being able to make Yibo feel as good as he did. So the best distraction was making food.

Zhan took a long time to come out of the bedroom. When he eventually came out, he was doing what he does most times when he has a lot going on in his mind and didn't know how to say it, he stood in one place and stared at Yibo.

Zhan's mind was still racing, and he was still trying to understand how Yibo knew all those things.

"Hey, don't just stand there looking at me like that, say something."

"Not sure where to start."

"Start anywhere, I will tell you what you want to know."

"How do you know how to do all that..."

Instead of being specific, Zhan gestured with his head towards the bedroom.

"You mean how do I know how to make you feel good?"

Zhan knew Yibo was proud of himself for making him crumble in his hands. The smirk on his face said it all.

"Yes, that."

"It's part studying and part experience. I'm not sure how much of the experience part I want to share with you without making you uncomfortable."

"I wouldn't ask if I wasn't prepared to hear the answer. You said you never dated anyone, so I am just curious how you acquired the skills you have."

"You will be happy to know that when I say experience, I mean it very loosely. I didn't sleep around. Actually, I signed up to be part of a secret club without my uncle knowing. There, I met a young man who became a friend with benefits. We were both scared of diving into the world of sex parties and changing partners over and over. So we made an agreement to meet once in a while to blow off some steam. The study part is really that, I took time and studies on how I can make anyone feel great. Sex between 2 men can be a very unpleasant and painful experience. I swore that those two words would never be associated with me. So that was the reason I studied hard. I don't want to be a selfish lover or a sex partner."

"How often did you two meet to blow off steam."

"The number of times we met was very short-lived because my uncle found out and made sure to scare that guy to the core. He wasn't homophonic at all. He just felt like my extra mural activities were becoming a destruction. So after that meeting, he wanted nothing to do with me. No matter how good the sex was, his life was more valuable than momentary pleasures."

"Your uncle sounds like he was a very scary man."

"He was a man that saw a lot in his life. All those experiences made him very protective and alert. I don't want to live the kind of life he led, that is why even if I have to risk my life, I need to put an end to Ziyi's schemes. I want to live freely and love freely. Both these things my mom, dad, uncle, and so many other people never got to do."

"I understand that. I hope you know that I have nothing to offer you in that area, but I am willing to learn so that I can make you feel good too."

Zhan was still a little uncomfortable to say directly what he was talking about but Yibo understood what Zhan meant.