He's Not Yours, I Am | Sope

xxxviii. To Be Happy

Sorry for the late update. I just started my freshman year (I'm finally in college!) + I'm editing my other book

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Jimin

Jimin
Hyung

Hoseok
Jimin, I have something to te |

Hoseok
Jimin

Jimin
Don't sweat it.

Hoseok
Sweat what?

Jimin
You don't like me. I know. I didn't, but now I do

Jimin
I did some self-reflection after I discovered. It's okay. Don't sweat it anymore

Hoseok
Jimin I'm so fucking sorry... I don't know where you got this, but I'm so sorry...

Hoseok
I'm sorry for using you...

Hoseok
I can't even blame Yoongi. Nothing is his fault. It's all mine.

Hoseok
I like him. He probably hates me now

Hoseok
I'm really sorry. I don't have a face to show you. I'm so ashamed that I want to bury my head deep under. I'm really sorry, Jimin

Jimin
Hyung. It's okay. I told you, it's all right.

Hoseok
Jimin... How do I make it up to you?

Jimin
Make it up? To me? You can't.

Jimin
The damage has already been done. The pain has already been inflicted. Can you turn back the time? That would be an impossible feat for you, wouldn't that be?

Jimin
So don't sweat it.

Hoseok
That was so selfish of me. I did everything just to win your heart so that Yoongi would move on from you.

Jimin
Don't.

Jimin
You don't have some explaining to do

Hoseok
When you get tired of me you'd leave me and I could finally go to Yoongi and confess my feelings to him. I wasn't thinking straight as I planned everything. I have no excuse Jimin, please penalize me, do whatever you want please I'm so sorry

Jimin
Please stop. I will block you if you don't

Jimin
I don't need any explanation from you nor from anyone.

Jimin
I told you already. You don't have to sweat it.

Jimin
In fact, you don't have to do anything

Jimin
Just stay the way you are. Don't do anything. That way I can move on. That way I'd know what you really are, what you really are not, and move on from you

Jimin
It's just so funny how you think I'd get tired of the person I genuinely like. That is, until now

Jimin
You know, Hobi. It's so funny bc you don't know how to love

Hoseok
I do

Hoseok
I'm sorry Jimin, but I do

Hoseok
I just love selfishly

Hoseok
We all just love differently

Jimin
Just.

Jimin
Stop. Please.

Jimin
I told myself not to choose the wrong person. I told myself not to choose any of you, but I did. Funny. Now I'm fucked.

Jimin
Maybe choosing wasn't the problem. It's just that I chose the wrong person. But choosing is never the problem. I know it.

Jimin
I hate this, Hobi. I hate feeling defeated. I hate losing yet I always end up doing so. But why? Why does it always happen to me?

Hoseok
I'm so fucking sorry...

Jimin
You said you like Yoongi. Don't hesitate on that. You did a lot of things already. I hate you. I fucking do. I'm sorry, but can you blame me? But you don't have to do anything about it. And even if I do, I still love you as my friend. And I don't want any of my friends to get hurt. So I'm not gonna go to Yoongi when I know that can hurt you the most.

Jimin
Even if I think of hurting you, which I will never do, I don't like him. It's just you. So if I do that, I'm just gonna make a fool out of myself.

Jimin
I don't want to retaliate Hyung. Revenge begets hypocrisy. And I'm true to myself.

Jimin
I simply want

Jimin
to be happy

Jimin
Thanks. Bye

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