He's Not Yours, I Am | Sope

xxxix. Be Of Service

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Jungkook

Hoseok
I've done it, Jungkook. I've fucking done it.

Hoseok
I wouldn't be able to sleep some more bc of this, or even sleep itself for that matter

Hoseok
Even my dreams come to haunt me in my sleep

Hoseok
Jungkook

Hoseok
Jungkook

Hoseok
Juntkookkf

Jungkook
Hey. Hyung. Calm down. Deep breaths.

Jungkook
Take it slowly but surely, step by step, little by little.

Hoseok
Jimin was still a sweetheart in the end and it breaks my heart into pieces knowing he'll forever be even though he's hurting already

Jungkook
Good. Let that sink in

Hoseok
Jungkook?

Jungkook
It's to remind you that you should not do anything to anyone, especially to sweet cinnamon rolls like Jiminie.

Jungkook
What you're feeling right now is very valid. But please, try to calm down. Deep breaths Hyung. And distract yourself from thinking about it all the time. It adds up the stress. How are you coping so far?

Hoseok
I don't know, Jungkook

Hoseok
I have no idea

Hoseok
I just think that everyone hates me. That I'm an insect in their eyes. I've been shunned. I'm so fucking embarrassed to face you all. I'm so fucking sorry for dragging you into the mess that I've made

Hoseok
But I don't know who to turn to anymore and you were just open like a door, ready to let me enter and make me feel at home. It's like I'm sitting on your sofa talking to you and drinking tea and all I hear is the soft tune of a piano and multiple bells gently chiming, filling my ears with nothing but sweet melodies

Jungkook
Take all the time in the world to heal. Time will pass, it will be remembered still, but not the same as how it had occured.

Jungkook
Jimin also needs time to heal. Everyone does. The rest needs time to forgive you and understand, but not excuse, just a little bit why you did that. You yourself also need time to forgive yourself.

Jungkook
As long as you realise that the ruse you did was wrong. You can improve by taking it slowly.

Hoseok
But Jungkook

Hoseok
How can I forgive myself? It is my fault, and I know that

Jungkook
So? Can't you forgive yourself for whatever you did? How can people forgive you when you yourself can't even do it?

Hoseok
Stop romanticizing what I did Jungkookie. That's kind of you, but you don't have to put me on a pedestal. I am well aware

Jungkook
Romanticizing? I'm sorry, but are you hearing yourself right now Hyung? Put you on a pedestal? Really? You think that's what I'm doing to you?

Jungkook
It is your fault Hyung. I don't deny that. You were selfish. You're facing the consequences of your actions and you're doing it terribly and I feel sorry for you because you can't handle it by yourself, and that's okay. Yes, humans have freewill. You do, yet you chose to do something you can take advantage of instead of doing what's best for yourself and for the people around you. But since you've realised your mistake, you wouldn't think of doing it again right? You're regretting it to the very core. It's enough to forgive yourself from what you did.

Jungkook
As it is said, to err is human, and that's normal. What is not is when you do but don't realise it

Hoseok
Jungkook

Jungkook
Yes, Hyung? I am listening.

Hoseok
Jungkook

Hoseok
Can you come over

Hoseok
Please

Jungkook
Of course Hyung, I will. I want to see how my loud and cheery Hyung is doing

Hoseok
Thank you, Jungkook, for being here.

Jungkook
You know you can count on me, Hyung. I'm always of service.

Hoseok
I wouldn't know what to do without you. How to cope, if I'm even coping, without you.

Jungkook
I exist for the sole reason to be of service

Jungkook
That might be a drag, but I think it's true.

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