Babymama

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Onika Maraj
October 4th

Two Years Later...

"Nicki, take a deep breath and try to hold back the tears; you don't want to ruin your makeup before she's finished," Lauren said, as I gazed upward, battling the urge to let the tears fall. Emotions have been overwhelming me all day long.

"Hi Mom, am I beautiful?" Giselle entered, radiant in her lovely white dress. Her curls cascaded freely, adorned with sparkling clips that crowned her head like a tiara. She was the epitome of loveliness, my precious little one.

"Hold on, Mom, let's wait for Bri Bri," she beckoned her sister. And there she was, my youngest, a mirror image of her sibling in beauty and grace. I couldn't help but let the tears flow.

"Mommy always crying" Brielle said chuckling.

"Baby brother always making her cry," GG said as she came over and placed a hand on my stomach. I am eight months pregnant with our son, our last child; I think four is a good number. I am now thirty-two, and Bey is thirty-three; we're getting married today. It's been a long journey, but we are finally here.

My babies are growing up, and it makes me sad every time I think about it. My oldest daughter, Giselle, is now eight years old, and she's starting to like lip gloss. Beyoncé, on the other hand, doesn't like her having it.

My twins are 4 years old and they're so smart and independent now. They're growing up too fast for me; they don't need me for much anymore as they try to do things by themselves

I had a couple more days until our son, Omari Knowles, was due, and I was feeling miserable. He had me so huge; I think he may be my biggest baby, which scares me for giving birth.

"I want baby out now" Brielle said to me.

"Me too, mamas. You both look so pretty, don't get dirty" I said mostly to Brielle, yes she still runs. Matter of fact...

Lauren called out, 'BRIELLE!'" as she chased her running off somewhere. I chuckled, getting my makeup done at the moment, feeling a few kicks as I rubbed my stomach.

"Okay, baby you have like thirty minutes" mama tina said to me, the MUA finished up with my makeup as they all helped me step into my dress.

Omari is so big I had to get the dress altered last week to make sure it'd fit, it was so beautiful. I was in love.

"Mommy, you're so pretty," came the sweet voice of my son. As I turned around, I saw him standing there in his adorable little tuxedo. Overwhelmed by his cuteness, I had to lift my head to prevent my tears from falling.

Why are my children so fucking adorable? Seeing my struggle, Solange kindly offered me a Q-tip to delicately dab away my tears.

"Look at you papa, oh my goodness" he smiled, he knew he looked cute and loved the attention.

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Beyonce Knowles

Today, I was marrying the love of my life. As I walked out to the beach, where we were getting married in Belize as per Nicki's request, I couldn't help but reminisce on all we had been through. I felt incredibly blessed and grateful.