Babymama

34.

Beyonce Knowles
Miami, FL.

"Shit" I looked down at her sucking my dick while I took a pull from the blunt, I was feeling real good right now. I was high and horny.

I nutted and made her get off of me, she swallowed and smiled at me. I gave her a sly smirk as I inhaled more of the smoke, exhaling slowly with my eyes low.

"You feel good daddy?" Megan asked me before taking the blunt from me and taking a pull herself.

I've been in Miami for a week now with Megan, I was at her house before I even left Houston and decided to bring her along, might as well have some company.

"Better than ever" I chuckled, clearly faded as fuck.

i've been calling my mother to see how my children were, ill be back to them soon but right now I just needed this time for myself. I didn't want to be around that soppy sad shit.

Of course my mother always told me to ask Nicki myself how the kids were, but I blocked her number and didn't plan on speaking to her anytime soon.

I was laying back relaxing until I got a notification from instagram, it was Nicki with a screenshot of me and Megan. I shot up quick, did this bitch take a picture of us sleeping? sneaky bitch.

OnikaMaraj: so this what you doing now? that really must be your baby. cool.

I didn't respond cause truthfully she had no ties to me to even be asking me any questions, I was single and could fuck on who I wanted to.

"Megan, what the fuck wrong with you bro?" I asked pushing her off the bed, she gasped before getting back up.

"Beyonce why did you push me? I'm pregnant dumbass"

"Why would you take a picture of us sleeping and send it to Nicki? You're weird, always wanting to one-up her! That's lame."

I got up and realized I regret bringing her here. I tend to make decisions on a whim. I'm considering cutting this trip short to get back to my kids. I think I've spent enough time in Florida.

Onika Maraj:

I was so annoyed. Beyoncé has been in Miami with her this whole time. It's like every time we have an issue, she runs back to her. I was over it

She's a hypocrite, never once texted me how the children were. She texts her mom as if they're over there 24/7, they're not.

"Mommy, Noel hit me!" Brielle whined before hitting him with her shoe, now he started crying. It was that yelling type of cry that'll annoy you.

"Both of you stop hitting, yall are about to go to timeout"

"Noooo" they whined.

"Please cut it out and play nicely with one another". I've been stressed; I can't lie. This whole thing has been on my mind heavily. The way she threw the ring in the water hurt me the most. It felt like she was saying she's done forever.

I'm so done with this. I really wanted us to work, but it's like all we do is break up and get back together. I'm just over this whole repeating drama

"Mommy, I'm hungry," GG whined, wandering into my room. Why do all my kids prefer my room over theirs? They just keep bothering me.

"GG we just ate not too long ago"

"I just want a snack mommy" she said raising her shoulders, these kids will eat snacks all day if you let them.

"Go get ONE, GG and eat it in your room" I just didn't want the twins to start begging too, they don't even eat their snacks. They'll take a bite and leave it on the ground. Food too expensive for that.

"okay" she ran out.

I felt like the twins were a little too quiet, I leaned up from my bed and saw them watching a show together on Noel's Ipad until Brielle placed her face all up in the screen.

He pushed Brielle's head aside and said, 'Move, Bri Bri.' She started to cry and throw a fit. I let out a sigh.

Everyday I wonder why wasn't a condom used, how did one child turn into three. I needed a vacation, too.

"Y'all are about to take a nap, seriously"

"I not want a nap" Brielle said back sassily, that one always tried me, she reminded me so much of me I can't even be mad sometimes.

"Keep whining and you will"

Glancing at my phone, I was casually flipping through Instagram when I stumbled upon yet another photo of Megan. There she was in the mirror, and behind her, Beyonce stood, her hands cradling Megan's belly.

My heart broke.

Was this her baby and she never told me? Why was she so comfortable around her all of a sudden? I turned off my phone and just closed my eyes for a second. I think it's just time for me to seriously move on and focus on my children.

We just didn't work, no matter how many times we tried.

I was just simply her babymama.

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