Ego (Jude Bellingham)

CHAPTER 13: No.1 Song

19th February 2023

jude had to leave the release party at 1am because he had a match at 2pm that day, so he had to fly back to Germany for a some sleep, last minute training and of course the match.

then he had a match on the 15th february, and he also has one today against Hertha.

henry has been trying to force me out to germany while i don't have much planned.

so i said i'd go to a match of his at a later date.. henry wasn't happy seen as though we need to 'keep up our public relations' but i said that me and him liking each others posts on instagram will do just fine.

don't have to be joined at the fucking hip.. and i really could not be joined at the hip with him. i'd fucking kill him, especially after our last encounter with each other.

we still haven't talked about the night of my release party. it's been 9 days.
he's messaged me, tried calling me, i answered and we ended up cussing each other out.

in total, we've been on the phone 5 times and we've argued each time.

i could fucking strangle him.

it's a good job he's fucking good looking.
no- i didn't mean it like thaaattt.. but a prettier face makes you not as angry. do you get me?? regardless he still makes my blood boil.

"when i get messed up at the partyyy, i make a scene and get upset" i sang randomly as i tapped my pen against the desk in the studio, i was writing again.
i had been in the studio for a week straight.

i made sure to write that lyric down on a separate page, i was already half way through writing a song right now and that lyric that i just came out with didn't fit the song, so i'm saving that to build upon for another song.

my music video for outrageous came out yesterday, it got put together fairly quickly and was released 6 days after the song's release.
its already got 10 million views.. normally, you need to release the music video on the day, or a day or two after for it to do well.
so almost a week after, and getting 10M views in a day, is something i should be extremely proud of. and i am proud.

"still be lookin my best, i stay on the beat..." i randomly sing

"beat.. beat.." i murmur to myself thinking of the next line to sing
"you can count on me" i sang smiling, writing down the lyrics

"i ain't missing no steeepppsss" i sang and wrote that down too.

this was what i wanted to be my second verse. i already got the first verse and chorus down. it was now just verse 2, and the breakdown i needed to write.

i started this song a hour ago, took a 20 minute break went and got some coffee from kitchen type of room, where there's a coffee machine.. its a fancy one too, can make iced coffees with it as well as your normal hot coffees.
so being a girl, i opted for a iced coffee. of course.

half hour later i had the song nailed.

i took photos of this song in my lyric book and sent it off to one of my producers who i was working with on this album, he's called Mark Ronson.

i went through on my macbook air the tracks i have already got so far for the album that are a definite 'yes this is going to be what the fans hear'.
obviously i've wrote lots of songs that aren't gonna be on this album, or what i haven't chose yet.

but so far ive got 7 song, and i'm aiming for about 11-13 songs.
my record label said 15 is the limit on this album, they give me a new limit each time to reach. but they don't mind it being 11-13 tracks if that's how i want it.