Ego (Jude Bellingham)

CHAPTER 18: You Just Cheated.. But That's How We Roll

13th March 2023

*sexual content in this chapter*

i go onto twitter and see what people are saying today.

a lot of people are talking about jude being back in the uk with only a couple of days to go before his next match.

then i saw people talking about me and him, and how he brought me flowers and chocolates, as well as a dortmund jersey.

then i saw a lot of people talk about the fact my song has been out for a month and i've done no tv interviews.
people are ripping me and my team apart for it.

but did i need the interviews?? you do these interviews to promote the song to make sure its doing well.
but, its doing well on its own. i haven't spoke about the song much, its just successful because of pure fan and general public love.
which i obviously immensely appreciate.

so why do i need the interviews?

i am not a big lover of interviews anyway, with my anxiety, and especially now because all they wanna talk about is jude and i feel physically repulsed when they ask.

speaking of jude, yesterday he just stormed out of the studio and that was it.

it's now 12pm today and i haven't heard anything from him, not like i expect to hear anything, anyways.

i sigh reading the comments about me not doing televised interviews and decide to tweet about it.
'i've seen a lot of you mention the fact that OUTRAGEOUS has been out for a month and i haven't done any televised interviews or even a performance of it yet.. all that is coming. at the moment i'm trying to rest and finish the album before my life gets hectic again. thank you for all your love & support; it never ever goes unnoticed. love Anna xx'

i smiled as i sent it off to my followers.

today is another studio day.

i am working as hard as i can to get this album finished, the release for the album is in JUNE!!!
it's march now, so i need to hurry.

but, in all fairness, i am working at a good pace. i am doing good. and the album is going great so far.

there was a knock at my studio door and i got up to answer it

i opened it to see Chris Brown.

"i've got a few hours free.. before the show tonight" he told me "shall we get this second track down?" he questioned with a smile

"lets do it" i nod welcoming him in.

we wrote for a hour and was done.

with two minds, it's always quicker.

the song seemed to flow, it was fun writing it.

i made sure to record some bits and bobs for when i do my 'behind the album' series dump on my instagram once the album is released

"shall we record it?" chris asked and i nodded

"lets do it" i nod at him with a smile

i get the instrumental ready so it can play through our headphones and then i meet chris in the booth.
i set my phone up on the windowsill and use selfie mode so i can video chris and i

"you ready" chris nodded at me

"i'm ready.." i grin at him

i hear the clicking cue in my headphones and then talk lustfully into the microphone

"he say that i blow his mind
every time i'm activated
you just tryna catch a vibe
stasia got you fascinated" i say into the microphone

"jump up in a brand new ride" i say as chris said "breezy" lustfully into microphone at the same time