Ego (Jude Bellingham)

CHAPTER 27: Love

*the same day*
26th March 2023

i was gobsmacked.
last time i felt like this was when i last saw him.. i can't explain the feeling i am feeling either.
its like i'm paralysed. can't move. can't talk.

and he's only ever been the only one to make me feel like this.

"alright bro, i'm zayn." zayn reached over and shook jude's hand

"alright mate, i'm jude" jude offered him a small smile when he shook his hand

"i know you.. good little footballer." zayn nodded at him. jude smiled and thanked him, still being weary of him.

"thank you." jude replied softly, but u couldn't take my eyes off of zayn.

obviously, as beautiful as ever.

zayn looked back at me and offered me a small smile "you sounded beautiful."

my stomach turned.

"what are you doing here?" i asked him, my mouth was dry.

"i should ask you the same thing" he said with a small smile walking past me and going to sit on the swivel chair at the engineering table.

"what do you mean?" i pulled a face

"looks like the room has been double booked." he said "or they've let you use the room until i got here"

"can't you go somewhere else?" i pulled a face

i sounded rude but i was on edge being around him again

"that's not very nice anna" he laughed softly at my reply "and anyway, all other rooms are fully booked.. that's why i came here. i found out at the front desk that you were in my room" he said, his hazel brown eyes on me

i scowled

"don't you think we need to talk, anyway??"

"i have nothing to say" i shook my head heading over to grab my hoodie

"come on jude we're going" i say softly

"anastasia. stop acting like a child.." zayn scolded me and i stopped in my tracks "what you can't be around me now? is that it? can't bare to be in the same room as me?" i could feel his eyes burning through the back of my head

"yeah." i say turning around quickly "exactly that" i gave him a look

"i'll give you both some time together" jude spoke up from behind me, i turned to look at him, giving him a sad smile, he reached out and stroked my back for comfort and walked towards the door

i watched jude walk out and i sighed

"seems like a nice kid, is he looking after you?" zayn asked, while i was still looking at the door jude left out of.
i turned back to zayn with tears in my eyes

"you're a prick for showing up like this"

"how else was i supposed to see you?" he furrowed his brows sitting forward on the chair as he questioned me "you've been ignoring my text and calls like we just meant nothing.. like I meant nothing!" he accused me

"ME??!" i snapped pointing at my chest "be so for real zayn" i laughed shaking my head

"i am being for real." he nodded, so seriously

"why now?" i asked him randomly as i sit down on the coach opposite him, on the other side room

"what do you mean?"

"why are you crawling out of the woodworks now?" i asked him, clarifying what i meant.

zayn and i were seeing each other for around 6 months.
it started when i turned 19 in june last year.
and ended just after his birthday in january this year.
so it was nearly 7 months we was seeing each other.