Ego (Jude Bellingham)

CHAPTER 25: A Good Change

26th March 2023
                   ANASTASIA'S POV

i woke up in bed and a body was beside me, i groaned quietly to myself and turn around to see jude.

the memories of early this morning started flashing in front of me.. and wow. what a night it was.

i've slept with experience men.. inexperienced men.. and jude was by far my top 2.
maybe he was thee best.. number one.

i'd just need a sober night with him to really test him then i'd know for sure.

i slowly crawl out of bed and grab my dressing gown.. putting it on.
i grab my phone and look at the time.

its 12pm. i slide through my notifications.. ive got messages from bukayo, marcus, tolami and jade.
i grab a fresh set of pjs and head into my en suite bathroom.

i turn the shower on and step into it, being mindful not to wet my hair as i only washed it yesterday.

i got out of the shower after having a quick wash and patted myself dry.
i rubbed some body lotion on my arms and legs and then got dressed.
i was now in a black silk shirt and vest set.

i hung my towel over the radiator, grabbed my dressing gown and left the en suite entering my bedroom again and hanging my dressing gown.

jude was still fast asleep making me smile.
i grabbed my phone again and headed downstairs.

i made myself a cup of tea and prepared one for jude for when he was up.

i hope it's not awkward.

even after everything that's happened between jude and i, i really don't regret sleeping with him.
i'm just hoping he feels the same way.

i sit outside with my tea and take in the air, the weather was crisp today. making me feel a little chilly. but it felt refreshing, it's what i needed this morning.

i started thinking about work, gonna have to pull my finger out and get this album done.
my label are on my back, they want to listen to it in full, talk through what order i want the album in.. and they'll want to know my next single which they'll probably decide on or at least pressure me into choosing certain singles.

picking my next single has been the least of my worries, i've just been wanting to get the material for a album.
i do have many songs on the album that can be singles, but i'll choose them when it comes to it.

i go onto twitter and see them still freaking out about niall and i.
the comments were so lovely.
how people could tell niall and i genuinely adored and appreciated each other.
a lot of people pointed out how he kept a watchful eye on me when i was clearly upset, how he hugged me.
people are speculating i am upset over jude, and that niall is being a good friend. which is absolutely right.

louis commented on our viral video of 'put a little love on me' and 'our song'
i smiled reading his comment.
'two incredible voices!! love ya both xx'

i read some fans replying to louis.
and there was one comment that said 'anastasia is literally like all of your little sisters'
louis replied and said 'she is.. we love her and just want her to be successful and happy. it's all we want.'

i smiled reading his comment and i replied with 'you've done this for me, lou. i appreciate you and the lads more than you'll all ever know!❤️'

i continue scrolling through twitter and then move onto instagram when i get bored.

i like a few posts from kim kardashian, kendall jenner, justin bieber and adele.