a mothers will •jackie young.

chapter 21.

jackie🦋.

"gianna breakfast is ready" i yelled for the 4th time. usually she would be down here by now so idk what's going on.. maybe she stayed up late last night talking to that lil boy.

"gianna" i yelled. i sighed and sat my coffee down going upstairs. i walked to her room where i saw the door shut. "gigi ? can i come in ?" i asked knocking.

i opened the door slowly. "gianna WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ?" i asked snatching the pill bottle from her. she looked up at me with tears in her eyes. her face was red and her eyes were puffy.

"i-i saw him" she cried. i hugged her tightly rubbing her back. "your okay baby take a deep breath from me love" i coached.

"i gotchu love bug he can't hurt you anymore" i said as i rubbed her temple lightly it always calms her down. i rocked her side to side as her breathing started to level out.

"what happened baby ?" i asked wiping her face. "i was sleeping and then i saw him. and i felt like i was drowning so i thought about the only thing that would make it stop".

"baby girl.. this is not the answer" i said holding up the bottle.

"i promise you it's not. ik your hurting and you feel like it's not gonna stop but it gonna get better. God kept you here for a reason baby. you went through so much but now you gotta start blooming my love".

"you got me and your dad.. you got your aunt ty. and now you have bryce and juju. your never alone baby. if you feel like this come tell me. because this, this can cause permanent damage to to a temporary problem."

"i will always be here gianna & i don't want you to ever think about doing this to yourself because it's not worth it. your beautiful and your worth so much."

"you promise ?" she asked me through tears.

"i promise baby" i told her. she wiped her tears and hugged me tightly. "okay let's go get you some food and you need some sunlight" i said leading her downstairs.

she sat down and i made her a plate. "here eat baby i'll be back i said walking to the backyard.

"omg is she okay ?" ty asked.

"yeah i mean i went in there before she could take all of them but my baby is hurting. and she did such a good job hiding it from me these past couple of week. i could tell it was all built up emotions." i told her.

"so what are you gonna do take her back to see her therapist ?"

"yes i think that it helped her when she first started going."

"well girl i'll be back down there this weekend since we have that break for the wnba all star weekend"

"okay be safe.. i love you and text me if you need anything!" i told her.

"i love you more" she said. we said our goodbyes and then i called her dad.

"my baby girl good ? she texted me last night and said something was wrong but she told me she would tell me in the morning" he said.

"well she tried to take a whole bunch of pills but i went into her room just in time to stop her. she's hurting baby so i think imma take her back to see her therapist"

"bet i will be home wednesday morning. y'all be safe".

"we will and you be safe to my love" i told him. after we said our goodbyes i walked into the kitchen.

"mommy.. i'm sorry about earlier i don't know what i was thinking" she said putting her head down. i used my finger to lift up her chin.

"it's okay baby. i understand that your hurting mentally and you wanted the pain to stop. that's a sign of depression. i'm not mad at you but i do want you to know there's other way to deal with this." i told her.

she got up and came around the counter hugging me. i can't imagine what my baby was going through for almost 12 years. she fought so hard tho. and now i want her to focus on healing.

"mama what's ptsd ?" gianna asked me.

"ptsd which stands for post traumatic stress disorder is exactly what you have. you have flashbacks about the things that traumatized and hurt you. so you telling me you saw him in your sleep is ptsd" i said and she nodded.

gianna🌸.

"ouu those are cute" i said to juju. we are sitting by the pool and my mom let juju come over. it's always good having her around she's so comforting and supportive.

"hey i just want you to know that i'm proud of you. ik it's hard for you right now but God is gonna bless you! your so strong because if that was me i probably wouldn't have made it" she told me.

i smiled at her and hugged her. ik i'm full of hugs today but i am so grateful for the support system that i have around me.

"thank you bestie.. i really appreciate it. and i appreciate you." we took some selfies and cute pictures. we watched a duece played with his little toy juju got him.

"hey i'm gonna run to the store you okay ?" my mom asked me.

i got up and walked over to her.. i really didn't want my mom to leave me. "yes i'll be fine" I hesitated.

"baby if your scared you and juju can come with me." she said fixing my hair. "i think we'll be okay just as long as she's here with me" i said.

she nodded and smiled at me. "i will bring you food" my mom said. she kissed my forehead and i waved her goodbye.

"so you and bryce ?" juju asked me making me blush. i watched as she smirked at me.

"we're good" i said giggling. "he still hasn't asked you to be his girlfriend yet ?" she asked me.

"nope but i haven't been to school since he told me he was gonna tell his parents about me so maybe he is planning on it" i said and she nodded.

"okay let's swim it's hot" i said. we stood up and held hands. 1,2,3 jump we said as we jumped in together.

we decided to play pool volleyball and juju had a little bit of an advantage cus she's taller but it's okay cus i was still whooping her butt lol.

chapter 21😝! i had to show the other side of "grief and trauma" cus one day your okay and the next your not! but juju is such a good bestie. vote & comment💋!