a mothers will •jackie young.

chapter 44.

5 months until the wedding🫶🏾.

jackie🦋.

i changed my clothes and listened as the team talked about random things.

"jack did yall find a venue ?" kirsten asked me.

"yess and we went to check it out and we loved it" i said.

"lemme see your ring again. baby he did not come to play" kelsey said making me giggle.

i held out my hand so they could see my ring.

"mbn.. i had one too and it was worthless" she added making me spit out my water.

"KELSEY CHRISTINE" i said as everyone laughed.

"what ?? i'm dead serious he wasn't even worth the f*** it took to make him" (IYKYK). kelsey added making me wheeze.

"OMG STOP" i said patting my chest.

"tell em kels should've kept em in the nutsack huh ?" sydney added making me shake my head. i could not stop laughing cus why are they like this ?

"yall gotta stop" i said grabbing my stuff. i said bye to the team and headed home.

unbeknownst to them every since ja and i got engaged we been fighting like crazy. ja admitted to me that he was struggling mentally and me trying to help him only p*ss him off.

i walked inside and it was quiet. gigi has after school practice and ja is probably somewhere drowning.

"baby wya ?" i yelled.

i saw him in the kitchen on his lap top. he looked at me and i could tell he hadn't slept in forever.

"hey wyd ?" i asked.

"nun i just got done working out" he said.

i walked over to him and hugged him tightly. he hugged me and then pulled away.

"ja we need to talk"

"ion wanna argue ma" he said.

"and you think i want too ? ja your taking my communication as arguing. i don't understand why its so hard for you to talk to me" i said.

"man jackie please leave me alone" he said raising his voice.

"im not gonna leave you alone jamel. this sh** is effecting our relationship man. and you want me to marry you and you can't even talk to me ?" i yelled.

"then don't marry me then jaceqlyn. how's it my fault im struggling man" he yelled back.

"it's not about that ja. it's about the fact that im trying to help you and you won't let me. you keep shutting me out for what ? and then gianna has to hear most the sh** we say to each other because every time we talk it turn into yelling".

"ykw im not finna do this" he said.

"then don't but just know if you walk out that door this relationship is done jamel. how you expect me to become your wife when you can't even trust me enough to tell me what's wrong".

"we grown ja. GROW TF UP and learn how to communicate." i yelled.

"aight so you wanna end this relationship bet" he said walking upstairs. i shook my head and followed him.

"that's not what i said baby. so stop twisting my words. it's not what i want but i refuse to either of us through this anymore. and gianna because she was crying last night because we were arguing to much" i told him.

"fine you wanna know what's going on. im sad as f***. and idk what to do. this sh** really heavy on my shoulders man & im the man so i gotta be strong for you and gigi that's why i wouldn't talk to you and tell you what's going on" he said making me stop and stare at him.

"baby.. you don't have to be strong for me and gigi. whoever told you that was wrong. i get it your a man so you feel like you gotta be strong for us but you don't".

"your mental health matters just as much as ours do. you have feelings and emotions and that's normal and it's okay for you to show them cus your human love."

"it's building up inside of you" i said as he rubbed his forehead.

"baby.. let me help you" i said moving closer to him. he looked at me and nodded. i could see the tears starting to form from all the frustration and emotions built up.

i hugged him tightly rocking us back and fourth. not only is ja struggling with mental health issues but his grandma just passed and it took a toll on him.

"we're gonna get through this baby. we always do but i don't want you shutting down on me. it's okay for you to show emotions" i said.

"i appreciate you ma.. it's not easy and knowing gigi go through this too makes it harder." he said and i nodded.

"i love you. yk i'm here for you my love. imma be with you until the very end" i told him

"i love you" he said kissing me passionately.

gianna🌸.

"hey is everything okay ?" i asked as my parents laughed in the kitchen. im so use to them arguing and tbh its nice to know they can work through anything.

"yeah why ?" my mom asked smiling.

"just asking. so what you making ?"

"my grandmas favorite pie for the family" my dad said making me smile.

"so what's the colors for the funeral ?" i asked.

i watched as my dad facial expression changed. my mom touched his shoulder.

"not right now baby.. your dad hasn't really excepted it yet" my mom said making me nod.

"im sorry" i mumbled.

"it's fine baby girl. ik you meant no harm" he said kissing my forehead.

i went upstairs to my room to shower and call bryce. every since my dad's grandma died it's effected him a lot. i hope my dad knows how strong he is and my mom as well.

"hey ma." bryce said.

"hey" he said

"what's wrong ?" he asked. it's crazy that he can sense something is wrong when i talk or look at him.

"my dad's grandma passed and he's really sad. idk what to do" i said.

"grief isn't easy bae.. you should hug him tightly and tell him how much you appreciate him and how strong he is. i think he just needs the reassurance from someone he loves" bryce said making me smile.

he always knows what do or say to make me feel better. he's so wise and smart and i love that for him and me cus MY MAN MY MAN MY MAN.

"bryce your amazing. so smart and so sweet. i love you" i said.

"anything for you mama. i love you more" he said

"okay imma go shower then talk to my dad and i will call you back" i said.

we said our goodbyes and i went and hopped in the shower. after my shower i went back downstairs to the kitchen.

"dad ?" i said.

"wassup princess ?" he said smiling at me. a very tired smile.

"im really sorry about earlier. i just want you to know that i love and appreciate you so much. your so strong dad. but you don't have to pretend for me i want you to feel comfortable cus we take care of each other" i said making him smile. i could tell it was a real one.

"aww thank you princess. i promise you it's okay it didn't effect me. your so smart and so wise baby girl. i love you forever" he said hugging me back.

"aww how cute" my mom said smiling at us.

"she so nosey" my dad said as we laughed.

"come join us mommy. we needed this" i said and she nodded. "we definitely did baby" she added and we did a group hug.

life has been life-ing but as long as we got each other we'll be fine. im so grateful for my parents and this life that God has given me. blessed.

chapter 44😝! y'all know i had to be realistic lol but don't worry cute jackie and ja will be back! bryce is so wise and smart! and gigi is so sweet 🥹🥹. love them. vote and comment💋!