Silently in love - Sanegiyuu

10 / Wind Hashira's Estate

SANEMI POV

I am so embarrassed right now. I fucked everything up, and didn't think about my apology properly..He wont forgive me.  What was I fucking thinking? I did all that shit to him and tried to come upto him like it never happened... I was surprised he even stayed to see what i had to say.

It's useless. I should just accept that i'm an idiot. I'll just go back and accept it, I guess.

(THUD)

What the- I turned around and Tomioka had fallen to the ground. Was he like ill or something? I knew he hated me right now with all his might, but was I just gonna leave him there? I kneeled to him 'no, he looks like he's sleeping.' ... Alrighty, this is great...
I tried to shake him to hopefully wake him up, each time but he just laid there? Was I supposed to leave him there in the forest untill he woke up?

I picked him up and walked to my mansion which is close to this forest. I know i'm gonna regret this later, and when he wakes up he'll probably hate me more. Shit. What was I supposed to do?

I opened my mansion door and laid him on my bed.  This made me feel uneasy... 'Oh fuck it. Did you want to leave him in the forest? Why was he always fainting or getting injured? I mean- Fainting after I punched him a couple times. He was a Hashira. Well, judging by those huge dark circles under his eyes, he probably doesn't sleep.' I thought while i forgot I was staring at him alseep.  Not even a sound of his breathing. Like a dead body. I then go to my kitchen to grab a cup of water. I think about how much of an idiot I was to take the piss out of him every day since he was a hashira because of misunderstanding.. When i return from the kitchen I sit down next to Tomioka in my bedroom and watch him sleep. The guild builds up in my throat. I take a sip of water. "Agh, Tomioka if only I could take everything I did back..." I accidentally say out loud. I take a sip of water and then realise something is moving next to me, I look back and Tomioka is fully awake and sitting up in my bed.
I nearly spat out my water.

"Tomioka-"
"Why am I in your fuckin bed.?"
"Well, you passed out in the mountains and-
"You should hav fuckin left me there." He says angrily.
"But-" He gets out of my bed and shouts:
"WELL, I DON'T FORGIVE YOU AND I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN." And he begins walking out. Fuck fuck I messed up....

TOMIOKA POV:

I am discussed that I woke up in Shinazugawa's bed. Fuck, I gave in and fell asleep before he must have left according to what sanemi's lips were reading. But his expression, he looked distressed.
Why do I give shit though? Don't think about that, Giyuu. Just think about everything he did to you.

This time I knew where I was going just about. His estate was not far from Muichiro's mansion, so I knew where I was roughly. I didn't feel any better as I walked back though.... I was in need of sleep. How could I sleep at Shinazugawa's estate but I can't even sleep in my own room every single night? it was annoying.

I got home and thought I was alone... But Tanjiro was waiting inside my estate... I must have left it unlocked?

"Giyuu-san!!!!!" His lips moved.
"Tanjiro, It's the middle of the night." I said. Before I could think he says- "I'm sorry for coming so late in the night, but I got worried! Kanroji-san told me briefly about what happened at that Hashira meeting, and when I came to your estate just now you were missing! And-"
"Tanjiro. Don't consern yurself with me." I replied because he was speaking so quick I had trouble reading his lips. I didn't usually struggle with that. Tanjiro looked at me with sadness, and then he insisted he stayed the night and wanted to know more detail about what happened.

I couldnt't just turn him away... he was here for me. Even though i was exhausted.

We sat down and I got the notebook I had to write in it so could explain it better that way. I told him how Kocho spied on us, how everybody found out and.. how sanemi tried to fight with me.

Sanemi...

Tanjiro looked shocked, then he asked if I was hurt. I shook my head. At least he cares about me... I then saw him say that he was sorry that Shinazugawa and I couldn't be friends.. Why was he apologising? It's not his fault. I told him to not apologise and that he should go home and rest, but he refused.
"Nezuko will be ok, she is with Kanroji-san tonight. Let me stay with you Giyuu-san! -- Giyuu-san! Giyuu-sannnnn! please?!"

"Please!!!!"

"Giyuu-san!"

"Alright." I said after I got exhausted of lip reading his begging." I went and got a spare mattress, pillow and blanket and laid it next to mine. He looked at me with his big smiley face. Welp, this is great.

half an hour later. Tanjiro is asleep.. But I can't fall asleep even though my body is crashing. So I just watched Tanjiro sleep peacefully. I can't help but remember Shinazugawa's shitty apology. Why can't I forget about it?

I want to forget about it.