Silently in love - Sanegiyuu

4 / Rejected

GIYUU POV
I felt my eyes watering. I was so stupid... to think Shinazugawa would be my friend. I'm sure he loves Ohagi... He obviously hates me so much that maybe I should just get out of his way. Tanjiro and nezuko ran upto me and offered their hands to pull me up, which snaps me back into reality.
"Giyuu-san! Are you ok?" He said. But I hated not being able to hear his concern in his voice.
"Ohagi... " I said in my dry voice , but i spotted the once neatly wrapped box, which was now fully opened and the Ohagi smushed onto the pavement... I couldn't help but cry a little in front of Tanjiro because I felt like an idiot, going through all that effort for somebody who doesn't give a shit about me.
"Hey, it's ok , i'm sure he'll come around soon. Why don't we go back?" Tanjiro said as he looked at me. I nod and then picked up the ruined Ohagi . Why did I want to be friends with Shinazugawa out of all people??

I let tanjiro and nezuko into my estate, and I just parked myself on my floor. Looking at my empty estate with barely any furniture made me feel more upset. Tanjiro came to sit next to me.
"Giyuu-san... are you ok?"
I nodded.
"Are you sure? " He questioned. I wanted to speak so badly... Say the words that I've been meaning to say, but I had lost the ability to talk well since i've been deaf. To hear Tanjiro's voice, since I met him after I became deaf. I felt bad about not being able to reply much to him, and I only nod at everything he says.

"Tanjiro..." I said. Tanjiro must have been scared by my voice, cause he looked at me. "Yes...?"

I got a notebook out which I had kept safe in my empty room and began to write:

Tanjiro... I'm Deaf. I have been deaf since a demon attacked me and injured me. I forgot how to control my voice since, so I struggle talking. I'm sorry. I can only read your lips in conversations.

When he was reading it he looked up at me with concern, and a little cry.
"Giyuu-san... I didn't know that... I'm sorry."
-- I didn't want him to be sorry for me... I am the one apologising for my cold behaviour toward him.

"But, it's not all bad. You can still communicate with others to some extent! And I don't care at all if you're deaf, or your voice is a little off. You're my friend, Giyuu-san!" he tried to convince me. So I try talking back:

"I- I do n't exbect yu to comfort me, Ofers Made fun ov my voice"

Instead of making fun of my voice like Iguro, he just said that i shouldn't pay attention to them. I write on the notebook asking if he thinks that Shinazugawa and I could be friends.
"Well, what if you tell him you're deaf? I'm sure he'll realise that he misunderstood you." Tanjiro suggests.

Maybe I should tell him?