Silently in love - Sanegiyuu

17 / Onto a new Start, maybe?

GIYUU POV

"Maybe if you weren't always injured I wouldn't have to!" I saw him mouth. Was he getting angry at me?

"I'm fine." But just as I said that, my stomach felt like it was on fire. I clenched it as a natural reaction. I was still looking at Shinazugawa as he looked at me concerned.

"Clearly not." He said.
I felt angry.
"Well, I'm fine on my own, I deaf not helpless. I still read your expression perfectly, And you fink i'm a helpless person don't yu?"

-- silence. Then he said
"I don't! I just hoped you wouldn't always get injured all the time! You'll die at this rate!"

"Well, you're the one who pinned me to ground the other day! It's your fault! "

"Well , I'm sorry for that! I really regret it now! I mean it!"

"Sorry don't make up for all the things you did to me!"

"Well, i don't know what else to do? I feel guilty every day...

"Well, maybe you should! You cause all the problems to me! I have emotions too! I'm not empty just because I deaf! Sorry does not revert all the trauma I have! I wish you would just fuck off and disappear!

- i regretted saying that. Sure I was pissed but now it sounded bad..... Shinazugawa was silent. He looked down.

"Shinazugawa, I didn't-"

He looked up at me so I could see what he had to say.
"You can leave in the morning. Master will let you of duty..." He said, but he looked vulnerable. He pointed to the Guest room and said to stay in there walked out. He looked like he was going to cry.
Damn I am angry but I took it too far... Saying he should disappear. I gulped the water down and attempted to stand up to lie down in the Guest room. I couldn't help but feel guilty. I leaned onto the furniture and the wall cause it hurt a lot and I closed the door in the Guest room. I made it to the bed and collapsed. I was so tired I think I actually napped for an hour...

SANEMI POV
His words got to me... He's right. I did such bad fucking things to him. And fucking Kocho. Whether Giyuu was injured or not, she was definitely coddling him, And it made me fucking jealous for no reason. Whatever...

The next morning I woke up and got ready for the Hahsira meeting, But Giyuu was about to leave my estate. I got his attention.

"Shinazugawa, I did not  mean it last night... I wasn't thinking right."
I was shocked, but I was more worried about him to be honest.

"It's whatever, anyway, do you need help going home ?"

"No."

"You look sick still. Are you-"

Before I knew, his body fell to the side, my instincts kicked in quick. Dammit why did he have to make me worry? I catched him in my arms and he looked at me. My face felt really warm and i suddenly got embarrassed and put him up and let go.
"See? You fell." I said, trying to shake the embarrassment.

"I'm fine. Go to the Hashira meeting now."
"At least let me walk you some of the way-
"Shinazugawa. It's fine."
"Alright.... I guess..."

I watched him leave and I then arrived to the Hashira meeting. My mind was fixed on Giyuu though. I hoped he would take it easy.

"Where's Giyuu?" Muichiro asked. Shinobu knew about his injury, but not what happened after, so I spoke without thinking.

"He is injured and umm, at his estate." I said.

"Wait, how do you that? Were you with him just now?" Obanai said. I almost forgot he hated him still.

"Well-"

"Oyakata-sama has arrived." Spoke his children. We all rushed to kneel down as he arrived.  Again he started talking about demons and things, but He didn't talk about Giyuu. Did he know somehow? He always seemed to know everything. I was getting worried about Giyuu. What if he had fainted right now? Or was in pain? Why the fuck was I so worried about him?

When Master left the meeting Obanai quickly turned to me.
"Well, what's up with you and Tomioka?"

"What, what's up with him?"

"What, are you pitying him now because he's deaf? I didn't expect that from you Sanemi."

"I'm not. I just know about his condition that's all."

"Shouldn't we have send somebody to check on him?" Kanroji butter in. Of course Obanai's attitude changed. "Uhhh I guess..." He said nervously. He obviously liked her. "Well, I'll go and see him then!" Mitsuri said cheerfully. Muichiro seconded that, and them 2 left. Shit, now I can't go and see him cause they will be there.

GIYUU POV:

I made it home just, Collapsed on my bed. I didn't want to do anything. I just thought about how Shinazugawa has been acting recently... Why care so much about me ? Was he genuine when he was trying to apologise all this time?

Whatever, I can't forgive him yet.

But, he was trying hard. I said earlier that I could read his expresssions, but really most of the time i couldn't.. I'm confused.. Is he trying to play with my emotions, or does he really want to start over.

Can we really be friends?