How To Survive In A Dump: The Diary of Mr. Thaddeus

Thank You Dear Reader! And Goodbye

For some time, you have witnessed my own discussions as you read my life from my own perspective. I do apologize for the many times that I have been disrespectful and rude to you wards. If at any point you may have put this book down in disgust, I would not at all blame you as you were undeserving of such speech. I do hope as you learned of me you also learned of yourself and knew that even as I needed help and change so may you. It has been my privilege to share my own thoughts with you although most vulgar, but to see into the very soul of one such as I is not necessarily something to hold most dear as there is someone greater than I in comparison. One of whom I believe we all may need. It at that time was my intention to belittle you but now I perceive that all are but dust. I included. It was at the moment of my powerlessness when I could no longer suckle with riches fine, that I loved most, that I began to understand my own mortality.

In times past I was truly unaware but now have known the truth and no longer desire to debase my fellow humans with words indignant from my very core. Please forgive me for such things as I have learned to also forgive myself. It was not to my knowledge that the hurt and emotions that I had once hidden my very person from would become my detriment and I found myself deep in the mire of pigs believing it was something worthy of praise when truly it was only like that of Gehenna. A burning dump if you will. And yet here I am. Still writing when perhaps I may have been dead. Lost in a past world and these things would have been passed on without my choosing to others who would not use these fortunes for good. There was a time that I may have praised my own knowledge of escape but now know I neither found salvation on my own nor did I find my self here by my own free will.

Instead, I was placed where I needed at a time of another's choosing although if I were to know of such a thing before hand, I would have relented with all my might. I do recognize that it was for my own good. And now like Pharaoh I am used, despite my thoughts diabolical, but yet have been found to be something better and assured of something greater than all the riches that I do still possess and share with great pleasure. I once spoke of a palace of gold that I would at some point obtain as those beneath me witnessed my greatness but in due time will still walk on streets of gold and share this joy with all. To be at peace. It will soon be my time but those near will continue in the work that was called for me from birth. In my hope I ask and desire that you will also do the same and be as I am if free or chained, rich or poor.

Blessings to you all on this Day!