Forever Immortal

Chapter 38: Forever Ben & Jazz

The voice in my head wouldn't stop tonight. Sometimes the voice was louder than other days. I couldn't always ignore it and I still didn't sleep much. The only time I sleep is on days I have practice. I'm too tired to dream. I still sleep walk. Mostly inside the house. As far being controlled, it still happens. Sad thing is, I see it all but can't do anything about it. I came in the store. Jazz was standing right at the register. Her face turned red when I noticed the tampons on the counter. She grabbed the bag and came out the store.

"You say one thing, I'll throw you in front of a moving car." I looked at her. Before I could say anything something hit me in the back of the head. I turned around to see a girl and four guys from our school.

"What the fuck do you want?" There were sophomores who loved picking on freshmen.

"Great suckmores." Jazz growled.

"Look its the school's he she." Said Brenda. I knew if it was just me they wouldn't have bothered me. Because Jazz was who she was, they didn't care. They weren't gonna go away. I hate when people fucked with my friends. It really pissed me off when they bothered Jazz just because she was confused on her sexual orientation. But that's what people do when they don't understand something.

"Just leave her alone." I said to them.

"She has a pussy but she dresses like a guy. Being on the football team yet she isn't a guy. She still buy tampons." One of the guys walked up to her pushed her against the wall. The bag fell out her hands. Jazz looked angry and embarrassed.

"So what she isn't bothering anyone." I told them. Jazz pushed the guy away.

"Just leave me alone! " she yelled and took off running. I had never seen her like that before. I picked up the bag.

"You people are fucking animals." I started walking toward the park where I knew she was. I think the park reminder her of times where she didn't question who she was. Me and Jazz never say eye to eye on much. But she was still my friend.

"Jazz!" I called out looking for her.

"Fuck off Ben!" I spotted her sitting on top of a picnic table. I looked at her face, I was about to yelled at her. That was till I saw the tears coming down her face. It break my heart really. It was hard to see a girl cry, no matter if she didn't think she was a girl.

"Jazz look at me." Her head didn't move. "Jasmine, look at me." Her eyes glowed a bright gold. Her eyes were beautiful even if she was crying.

"Don't call me that." She said as more tears streamed down her face. "No one gets it. I'm two people all the time. I'm Jazz and Jasmine. A wolf and a human. Alpha of a pack and friends with a vampire. I don't know who I am! I don't know where I belong. I just figured out that I'm not attracted to girls. And it's hard Ben, to figure all this shit out. Its embarrassing. One day I wake up I have tits. My body shape has changed. I've changed. And I can't ignore any longer that I am a girl. " I brushed her hair behind her ear and smiled.

"None of that shit matters." I told her. "It doesn't matter to me or to Riley. We want you to be happy." Jazz pushed me from her.

"If I wasn't Riley's friend you wouldn't be my friend!" I wasn't expecting that. I knew we didn't get along much. But I always thought of us as friends.

"That might be true. But I see you as my friend too. If I didn't I wouldn't have carried a bag of tampons looking for you. I wouldn't get so got damn pissed off when people fuck with you. No matter if you choose to be Jasmine or Jazz I'll be here. If you decide to be with your pack I'll be right here. Nothing is going to stop me from caring about you Jasmine." She stood up snatching the bag off the table.

"You're just saying that." I stepped in front of her grabbing her hands. I looked at her eyes again now a dark brown color. I can't describe the feeling I felt when I touched Jazz's hands. It made me feel warm. Without thinking, my lips pressed up against hers. I didn't want to let go, but when I did Jazz looked at. I was more than prepared to get punched in the face. She looked at me and stepped forward. I closed my eyes and felt her lips on mine. This time when she let go I looked at her. We not only kissed once but twice. Why did I kiss her? Why did she kiss me? I've never kissed a girl before like that. Not like how we kissed. I never had that warm feeling. I was confused because she is my friend.

"You tell anyone what just happened I will punch every single tooth out your head Ben." I kind of wanted to do it again. It was best we both left it alone.

"Damn bossy boots, a guy kisses you and turn back into mega bitch." She sat down at the table.

"We are not talking about it. And we aren't telling Riley." I rolled my eyes.

"I'm taking it to my grave. No one would believe me anyway." Jazz shot me a look. "Just saying."

"Well I don't care. We aren't talking about this. You're my friend and that's it" I knew that was her way of saying we were only friends.

"Agreed." I didn't want anything between us to change or complicate her life more. "Just feel really bad for whoever you date." I zipped my coat up. Must be nice never getting cold. Wish I was a wolf.

"What you mean?" I stood up shoving my hands in my pockets.

"Meaning, I think if you decided a girl is who you always been. Your pretty now, so I can only imagine what you look like in girl's clothes. You're gonna melt the poor guy's heart Jazz. Just remember he doesn't decide how you dress. You do." I started walking home. One day, she will find all the answers she's looking for. I just hope whoever it is doesn't make her change who she is.