Forever Immortal

Chapter 24: Forever Confused

Jazz’s POV

   

    I have to say the one thing about being wolf that I really hate had to be the fact that our cloths didn’t not transform when we did. When you went back to your human  body you were butt ass naked. Your cloths just ripped to shreds. I mean, I didn’t mind being naked. I liked being naked, just got tired of trying to finding cloths when everyone around you wasn’t as okay with it. Every other month I had to buy new cloths if I didn’t remember to take my cloths off or whatever. It was kind silly carrying them in your month. I rather run in my human body then as my wolf. Yes, we had an “inner” wolf or whatever like you read in books. It was just another version of myself to me. A version that only thought differently from me. That was more girly side of me. People didn’t get why I dressed like a guy. I felt like a guy most days, very few like a girl. When I did, it was more of myself comfortable with the wolf side. My wolf side hated that covered my body up as a guy. It was confusing to be a wolf and if I wanted to be a guy or girl.

    I broke past the trees to the pack house. This was the last place I wanted to me. I opened the door and walked in. No one ever bothered to lock the door, cause no one dumb enough to steal from a wolf. Also we can smell the person coming. When I opened the door and walked into the big house. I knew one day, when ever I found my mate I would have to live here. Who ever he her she was. That was another thing I was confused on. I didn’t if I  liked one or the other or both. I’ve never came across one guy or girl that I did like. Not wolf or human either. I went in the kitchen where everyone else was.Everyone was already looking at the door way when I came in.

“Well if it isn’t the vampire lover.” Thomas said to me. I rolled my eyes at him.

“Go fuck yourself, I’m not in the mood.” Thomas was suppose to be the person my mother picked up for me to date. Sometimes to parents picked who they wanted their child to possibly be with mate. I was suppose to be getting to know him, but he was so annoying. My mother and never agreed on it. My dad didn’t care who I loved, or who I liked. He wanted me to be happy. Yet, the man secretly rooted for Ben. As if I was going to let happen.

“I rather you fuck me sweet lips.” If he wasn’t the damn alpha I would punch him in the got damn face. Hell I would have punched him anyway if I didn’t come here for something important. 

“Look, there is shit going right now with my friend Riley. And there is a few a the family’s friends here to take care some of what’s happening. It’s about four of them. They with territory but they aren’t of any harm. My mom already plans make sure things stay at peace with us and the vamps.” One of the girls looked at me.

“Once again, playing the hero type for vampires. I get we are suppose to get along with them, but you are off living in their world.” Kieza said to me. I knew I wasn’t going to leave without them bringing this up. This was why I never came here, this was why I was never to welcome here.

“Riley is my friend. I grew up with him before we came here. Before we moved here.”I told said coming closer to her. I wanted to bash her face in.

“And we are your blood, we are your pack.” I rolled my eyes and laughed.

“Just cause they are not wolves doesn't mean they are not blood. They are my blood, my pack." It was stupid of me to come here.

"Just because you have Alpha blood doesn't mean you can do what you want. I am the Alpha here of this pack and this where your loyalty should rest. How do you plan to grow and lead a real pack if you aren't part of one? If you choose to live your  life around vampires, you'll never lead a pack. And Alpha is born to lead. Honestly surprise you can still shift." I heard enough of this. These were all things I have thought of, things my mother told me.

"Just don't bother them I got everything under control. They aren't a threat to anyone." Not to them at least, anything beyond that they just didn't care. I turned and went out the door. I knew at some point I was going to have make choice. A choice about everything, but right now I couldn't. Its hard to make choices when you had more questions than answers.