the lost daughter of ghost

the broken cake

It was finally my birthday I was now 11.I didn't feel different i just felt sad as the first thing I woke up to was shouting.i sat up in my bed dad had got ride of my stuff saying that i don't need any of the stuff i had like all my books,and my desk was gone all i had was some clothes  and my rats.i was lucky i got to keep them as Mr rat had bitten dad again when he tried to move them.

''SHE ARE DAUGHTER ALLEN YOU CAN'T DO THIS'' I heard mum screaming i guess they were arguing over me now. I got changed into some jeans and a black top before heading downstairs to see a smashed birthday cake on the floor.I stud their i didn't even have the feeling to cry i was num after dad slapped me i lost all my felling for them i couldn't stand to look at him but when i saw my broken cake on the floor i just looked at them.

''why?w w why on my birthday''i felt a mixer of anger and pain run through my body. ''why''i just looked down walking back to my room as i walked out the kitchen the letterbox opened as i letter slipped through the door.

'Dear sis' was all i saw as it came through i maidenly grabbed it as i ran to my room slamming the door before opening it.

Dear sis, 

                 i wish you a happy birthday .I read your letter the other day .I am so so sorry sis i had no idea this was happing every time i would call mum she said everything was ok she even said you weren't at home anymore as you were at a bording school .Am unable to come get you as am really busy with school and helping out the clergy with jobs they need doing but as soon as am able to i will come and get you i have all ready spoken to the head of the school to make sure you could come and they said yes as long as you helped out with jobs.in the evolve should be about £50 that should be just enough money to get you out and over here if you need to but please just wait at home till i come get you ok.

love tommy (p.s i was never mad at you and of course ill help you find your family but the clergy have said until your 16 you won't be given an education  by them i don' know why but ill help you with school)

I smiled as i read this i was happy i could go live with him soon but how long do i have to wait.i looked over at my door as it opend.

''happy birthday sweetie am sorry about your cake but here's your present i have to go work now''i hear mum say she didn't really look at me she just placed a box on the floor before leave the house.I picked the box up slowly taking the rapping paper off to see a phone.I smiled a little as the only thing i wanted was a phone well that and for my family to love each other again. But with this phone I could now start looking for my real family.I sat at the bottom  of my bed as i set this phone up it had a sparkly black phone case.After an hour of setting it up and downloading stuff onto it like games and YouTube i could now put Tommy's number in it.

*44 09865 347***Tommy 

Hey it's lilith i got a phone for my birthday we can talk more now if you want :)

now to hope he would respond soon.three hours had passed  since mum had gone to work and i still hadn't had a text back from Tommy i know he's properly busy he did say that in this letter.I should keep myself busy Mr rat and molly the rat were both asleep so I couldn't play with them but i could start looking in my family history or at least find out  who i was. I looked up the best apps or websites to use to find out your past i also tried to contact my old orphanage but they said they wouldn't help me as i came with nothing no files or anything well other than my birth certificate but that was all i had. Maybe i could use that to find out something.

*enter your full name*   

Lilith  Emeritus 

It took about ten minutes to load but it felt like an hour.

sorry we couldn't find this person 

what i thought to myself . What does it mean it can't find me, should i have put smith instead since they did change my name.I put smith instead and this time it  came up with my adoptive family. Great just what i want my real name doesn't exist and I don't know my birth mum's name.i sat there defeated  what was i going to do now i thought.i looked at my old picture book maybe that had something it had to right? Flipping through the pages i couldn't find anything i should just give up i thought.I'll never find them even if Tommy helps.I began to cry it wasn't because i couldn't find my family but because i could hear my dad shouting me to come down.

''GET DOWN HERE NOW'' i sarted to panic my head was spinning  i don't know why i was panicking i just was and the room spinning didn't help as i could see flashing lights and noises that weren't coming from my room or downstairs.     

''look papa i understand that there are roamers  going around the church but we don't   know for sure if this girl is yours or not'' 

I couldn't tell who was talking it looked like a women who was a bit old and had blondey gray hair but who was she talking to?As i tried to snap out of it until i saw him.He was wearing what looked like face paint but he had my eye my white eye.Then it went black as i fell to ground.i quickly got back up to see my dad standing in front of me with a cake?

''am sorry about this morning here is a new cake''he didn't look or sounded happy that he got me a new cake i just tuck it off him looking down at the frosting it read.

''it's a boy''great it's a gender revel cake that wasn't even a birthday cake I mean it's the thought that counts, right?

''thanks dad''i mumbled i didn't even look at him well i couldn't as by the take i had taken the cake he had walked out in a huff and a puff moaning about the fact that mum had made him promise not to kick me out or something well he didn't need to worry to long as i know Tommy will get me soon.Well i hope he dose he will get me i know he will won't he.

I started panicking again but this time i didn't see or hear anything it just went black again as i fell the floor my body going stiff and my breathing lowed down i felt sick but i couldn't move i just lay their on the floor before falling asleep.