A Human's Touch || BillFord (Gravity Falls)

Frilliam // Hiding

[Ford POV]:

I had spent some extra hours speaking with my Muse this morning and ended up arriving late to the lab. When I walked through the computer room I noticed something on my desk. A pink small, frilly creature in a small tank enclosure. I smiled and watched it swim around a little before going to ask Fiddleford about it. "Hey, is he supposed to be a gift?" I smiled referring to the pink creature. Fiddleford set the blowtorch down. "I found him at the lake! I'm not sure if he'd survive just stayin there so I scooped him up and brought him here. I know we've been through a lot and I've been taking breaks from the portal more than you have but, I thought maybe you could use a friend down here" he explained. Well I don't believe I'd consider myself lonely but it was infact a cute gesture. "I think it's adorable , Fiddleford" I smiled and adjusted my glasses.
From my knowledge of Axolotls they require larger tanks, luckily I have something like that around here. I have some extra shelf space upstairs actually so he might be more comfortable there, not to mention that a cold basement isn't super ideal for a creature like this.
Its actually quite fascinating he even stumbled across this, usually these are harder to find, perhaps down by Mexico even. People use them for their strange limb abilities, and though it's interesting they can grow their limbs back as needed, how some handle them isn't ideal. As a creature with strange limbs myself, I could sympathize with such a thing.
I lifted the small tank and carried it upstairs. I set it down in the kitchen while I hauled the bigger tank into the livingroom. I put it up in the empty area behind the furniture and it fit perfectly. I began to fill it and set up the filter and other necessities, and before I knew it my Axolotl was all set to go. I carefully moved him into the bigger tank and he seemed to enjoy it much more. Now all that was left was a name. I watch it smile and wiggle about before I finally landed on something, Frilliam.
I've never had a pet that knew how to wave at me before but Frilliam seemed like a fast learner I suppose, even if he'll just be watching us while we're up here, he's already proving to be a very intelligent creature. I can't wait to buy him some accessories for his enclosure.
F said his frills remind him of my sideburns, which I actually thought was a really sweet comparison. I don't think I've ever had a friend as thoughtful as him before.. not counting S.
If F knew about my Muse I'm sure he would've gotten me a different gift, likely a care ride to an insane asylum even, but.. I do hate keeping things from him, even if it is to protect him I still feel guilty. He's my partner, I just wish I could trust him not to worry about things the way he does.
What would my Muse think? I know we had a fight not too long ago, but I hope he doesn't get the impression I want him to be distant or anything. When it all happened he just seemed so.. unlike himself.
I even theorize about what really killed his dimension, but if he knew I'm sure he'd just be upset. I guess I'm keeping things from both of them, some friend I turned out to be. Maybe I really do need Frilliam, at least he wouldn't be bothered by petty things like this. He just drifts in lazy circles. Must be nice not to have to worry about so much.
Somehow I kept thinking about my Muse. I've seen some pretty bad monsters in Gravity Falls but, whatever happened to Bill's dimension could bring the end of my world if It found its way to it. I even have trashed drawings of what it could be. Something with firepower and a bloodlust or maybe some angry force in it. Poor Bill, being the only survivor of a massacre, I can't imagine how lonely that is. I mean even if I could, I don't know if I would survive by myself. I have Bill, F and.. well I used to have S.
Without them I wouldn't be where I am now even if we fight or go through some bad times. There has to be something I can do for him to ease the pain in his shoulders, I just don't know what.
He's wonderful enough to give me what I want but, if I can't return the favor what does that mean for me? How is it a fair deal? Maybe I should ask him, but he's so hard to get a direct answer from when it comes to personal things other than when we're fighting. I should go back to working on the portal just as some sort of apology. Frilliam looked at me with it's shiny, innocent black eyes as I began to walk ito the next room, but I stopped. I gave him a gentle wave before heading back to the basement.
I felt bad for leaving him alone upstairs but I want him to have a good environment at least, not with all this cold air, dirt, dust, and obnoxious electric and metal noise all the time. I know it's getting warm again but a basement still isn't a great environment for a pet.
I began to take down some of the holiday decorations on the portal, it was a thing I did for F a couple weeks ago and he actually really did love it, we even took a break to make snowmen outside in the yard. In a way though, I'm glad holidays don't last forever. Sometimes all the "family gets together" stuff makes me think too much of S, and then that sets me in a while mood for the week. I even tried to hide anything about my family from F for as long as possible, but of course he did find out about Stanley and our parents by the pictures I had tucked in that book. It was embarrassing and it I felt bad still not wanting to talk about it, but even if I did tell him he'd just end up feeling bad about what happened with me and S, so it's better if I just keep ignoring the questions in the end.