A Human's Touch || BillFord (Gravity Falls)

I WAS WRONG

[Ford POV]:

It's been a few days since, well, that.
I've been drinking a lot of coffee to keep him out. I'm even building a machine that'll keep him from reading my thoughts, it's in my old sanctuary. I wish the damn thing would scan faster but I'll wait as long as I need. I can keep myself distracted for a few hours, right?

I don't believe in myself at all. Well, when push comes to shove ,rope, chain and duct tape are always an option. If I bind myself to the chair Incase I call asleep maybe he won't be able to hurt what I'm trying to do. I begin to bind myself in place, then toss the key. I watch the key slide under the door and breathe a sigh of relief. I stare into the fuzzy color of the screen and soon I do find myself drifting off.

When I woke I saw rope burn and lots.of torn skin on my right arm, he only managed to get one free but that's nothing compared to the pain in my eye.. I touch my face and I stare back at the blood.. oh lord what has he done?! I weasel out of the chair and look at my reflection in the clear monitor. A fork, plunged into my eye.. how did he even.. fuck it's bleeding everywhere!  I started to hyperventilate from the anxiety of it all and I found myself screaming at the pain. He'd hurt me? Did everything we said to each other mean nothing? How much of a fool have I been?! I look back at my desk and see more carvings in "I grow maddened". Fiddleford was right, I'm gonna kill us all.. that.. that evil asshole! How could I be so stupid?! Before I know it I'm writing down in my journal. I was wrong about everything! My mind wanters and my hand moves along the pages with my quill. I try to take some deep breaths. I need to shut down the portal, I.. no, this.. this is personal, I need to make sure he knows it's over.
I need to just sit down and relax so I can enter the mindscape. I take a few deep breaths and try to clear my thoughts. Finally, I arrive.
It wasn't organized anymore, books everywhere. I used it like a staircase and made my way to him. "BILL! you lied to me!" I called out. "Woah! Looks like Mr. Brainiack finally got smart" The triangle shifts back into its humanoid form for me. There's a rip into what I can only assume is a realm of nightmares, containing silhouetted monsters that I can only assume are his friends. "The deal's off!" I hissed. "A deals a deal Sixer" He grumbled and shifts into a large, Godly like size. He picks me up and holds me in his grasp, a shiver goes down my spine. "Don't forget who you believe too" He smirks and the tattoo he made me get illuminated before turning into a blue chain collar. He pulled on the chain and I collapsed onto my knees. "Uhg! What.." I looked at my new restraints. He just laughed a bit manically. "WAS ANYTHING YOU TOLD ME REAL?" I yelled. I shifts back to his normal size for this form and we're suddenly floating. He could drop me if he wanted to but he's still holding the chains, reminding me that I'm just his pet. "I'd wink but I don't think you'd be able to tell" He chuckled, his demon friends joining the laughter. He brings us back to the sort of ground and sets me down, the chain disappears and absorbs back into the tattoo. For all I know it could be melted through all layers of my skin or even down into my bones. I step back from him as much as I can "I'll shut it down!" I screamed. "You think that's gonna stop what I have planned? Though, I admit it would be fun to watch you try, cute even!" He sneered, his friends laughing again. Then I woke up.

I ran down to my lab, practically gliding down the stairs and I password protected the door for my pupils, his eyes only have a catlike appearance so maybe I can keep him out. I turned off the portal and began planning to hide my journals. I'm too proud to destroy them but I might need help letting go. Finally, I closed the basement for what I hoped would be the last time. I decided keeping him out of my mind was enough, before he can find his way in here, now that he's not allowed in my mind, if I instal something into my skull or brain even maybe he won't be able to possess me anymore. I'll have to do some research, but I'll get there. I took journal number three and headed to the old bunker. I even installed some more stuff in the control panel to hide it. I hid it in a compartment in the ground. When closed you can't even tell anything is there, not to mention besides the metal this tree still looks normal. I closed the control panel and exhaled a sigh of relief as I felt more in control of my life again. I headed back and began to brew another coffee pot. I say in a chair and looked through the paper while I waited on it but, God damnit I just ended up collapsing. When I woke my hands were bloody again. He tried to get in the lab, but at least the security works. My blood is soaking into the journal as I wrote but I'll deal with it in a moment. Maybe I should check the library for anything that could help me in this.

★★★

Well I got banned from the library. The kids complained about my smell. I guess I haven't showered in a minute but I'm a scientist, and I'm fighting for my own sanity, is that really so important? Anyway I did recovery some knowledge about an ancient Anti Cipher Society, it was laughable but it did give me an idea. If I can build something to keep him out of my body, some armor or suit, I will.