Strangers

remember me

i stare at my hands, covered in finns blood. what did i just do, no.

i look for something and see a rag. i start sobbing as i desperately take the blood off. my father, clarke and abby walk through the tent, abby kneels in front of me. "they would have tortured him. i had to. i-" i sob, "it's ok it's ok"

"i had to. i had to" i sob as she hugs me. "what did i do" i mumble, i look at my dad and then i see the commanders guard walk in. "the commander is ready to talk" i nod and wipe my face. i stand up and the commander and her people walk through. she sits in her chair. "blood has answered blood, some on my side say that is not enough. they wanted the murderer to suffer as our tradition demands. but they do not know that your suffering will be way worse, what you did tonight will haunt you until the end of your days" i look down. "still there will be restitution. the body will be given to the people of tondc, murderer and murdered will be joined by fire, only then can we have peace"

"no. we've done enough, the boy should be buried by his people" my father says. "enough?" indra says, "we were owed the pain of 18 deaths, we were owed our righteous kill. my village deserves justice" indra says, "you don't want justice. you want vengeance" abby says.

"you have not seen my vengeance" indra says. "we'll do it" clarke says. "but when it's over, we talk about how we get out people out of mount weather. all of our people" she adds. 

"we want the same things, clarke"

"good. so when do we leave?" clarke asks. "now" she says standing up. "choose your attendants" she walks past us, "clarke, you don't have to do this"

"yes she does" i say looking at abby, "if this truce doesn't hold. i killed finn for nothing" i look at clarke, "i'll go tell bellamy, raven will stay here to fix the radio" i say. she nods, 

i look at raven who's by finns body. i walk over to her slowly. "go away" she mumbles, "raven i'm sorry"

"i said go away!" she yells standing up. "i know how hard this must be for you, but i'm leaving with the grounders, and i need you to keep working on the radios"

the grounders go to pick up finns body, "what are you doing? what are you doing?" she says turning to the grounders. "they need to take him"

i say grabbing her arm, "like hell they do get off" she yells. "give us a minute please" i say to the grounders. "raven"

"you agreed to this?" she mumbles, "we're taking him back to the village where the massacre took place. there's a death ritual. it's the only way to get our people out of mount weather"

she looks at me, "then i'm coming too. and don't worry, i'll bring your damn radio" she walks away and i look at finns body. i look at the grounders and nod. 

i watch as they come pick him up from the ground, as they do i see finn open his eyes.

he just stares at me as he gets carried away, i blink and look at him. eyes shut.

...

i stare blankly at the cart holding finns body as we walk. when suddenly i see a body in the woods, i look and see finn staring at me. "hey" i look at bellamy, "you doing alright?"

i look at the woods again and see nothing, "yea" i mumble. 

"you did the right thing" he mumbles, "well now i get to live with it" i say,

"you still think this truce is a bad idea. don't you?"

"i think we're wasting time with politics while our friends are in trouble" bellamy says, "we need their army to get to mount weather bellamy, and you know it"