Strangers

3 months

kaleighs pov*

it's been about a month since the war, a month since clarke went missing, a month since jasper went insane, and a month since i almost died.

i'm walking to the mess hall where everyone's at. i don't know why we call it that and not the living area, makes more since but whatever. i see monty sitting there, "where's jasper?" i ask. he look over by a bunch of shelves, revealing a drunk passed out jasper. "jesus fucking christ still?"

"he is still heart broken over maya" i sigh, "of course he is" i sit next to monty. "how are you feeling?" i ask, "good. tired of having to deal with him everyday but what are best friends for?"

"knocking some sense into each other" he chuckles. i look around and see bellamy looking at me, i smile and he walks off, "i don't know what i did"

"what do you mean?"

"with bellamy, i mean he's totally avoiding me. we've been at peace for a month and he hasn't talked to me since the day i woke up"

"it's because he think he failed you. jasper said something about it, that's why" i roll my eyes. "i should talk to him"

"yea. you should" i look at monty, "what?"

"do you love him?" he asks, i chuckle. "me? love him? crazy, no i just care about him. he's my friend"

"bullshit" i look down at my hands. "sure, i like him. but it'll never happen" he rolls his eyes. "it won't!" i add. "sure, go talk to him" i nod. "you want help with jasper?" monty shakes his head, "nah, i'm just gonna leave him there till someone splashes water on him" i nod. "well, don't let him die" he nods.

"will do" i stand up and walk in the direction bellamy went. i see him walking down the hall. "blake!" i shout. he ignores me, "blake!" he stops walking and i catch up running in front of him. "why are you avoiding me?"

"i'm not" he says, "you are"

"what did jasper say to you?" i ask. he sighs, "that is none of your buisness" i roll my eyes, god this man is so stubborn. "yes it is"

i grab his hand and pull him into a room. "what did he say to you"

"that doesn't concern you" he replies. "it does when now you're avoiding me, tell me"

"no"

"why not!"

"because it's none of your buisness!" he yells, "i'm keeping my distance so you don't get hurt again. now move"

i shake my head, "get hurt again? do you blame yourself for what happened to me at mount weather?" i ask, he doesn't respond. "move" 

i shake my head, "no, not until you respond"

he looks at me, "move kaleigh"

"no blake" he looks down. "yes, i blame myself, because i didn't go and stop him, i waited for clarkes orders. ok is that what you want to hear? that being around you reminds me of the person i care about so god damn much but i couldn't save" i stare at him, "you care about me" his stare softens, i smile. "what?"

i step closer to him, "next time jasper says something. ignore him" i wrap my arms around his neck and hug him, "just because you think you failed at protecting me, doesn't mean you did. i'm right here, i'm not dead. i'm right here, alive. don't blame yourself for something you had no control over please. i can't do this without my best friend"

i pull away from him and look into his eyes, tears. he's crying, i gently touch his face and he leans into my hand. "kaleigh" he mumbles looking into my eyes. i smile, "yea?"