Strangers

blood must have blood

raven and wick are going to shut off the radiation barriers. clarke is with the commander, octavia and indra and others in the mines. i'm here helping abby and my father. "i feel useless" i state, "why?" abby asks. "abby, i'm standing here. waiting for them to come back when i should be in that mountain helping get my friends back"

"you heard clarkes orders, you need to stay here"

"i don't take orders from her" 

"we're supposed to be a team, but after the missile, she stopped conversing with me about plans" i mumble, "kaleigh. it's ok, clarke knows what she is doing. we just need to wait here"

"i can't! my friends are in there. my family! and clarke wants to keep me here, they have a chancellor. i'm not needing here, i'm needed out there"

"she told you to stay because you are a liability, with your arm and leg, you can't fight. and she needs fighters, not injured people"

i stare at abby, "what?"

"she didn't want you getting upset because of it" i scoff. "i am! i'm perfectly fine"

 she shakes her head, "you almost died that night, you lost alot of blood"

"but i'm fine. i can fight"

"no. clarke ordered you to stay here, and that's what's gonna happen" i roll my eyes. "fine"

i walk away into medical, "what are you still doing here?" my father asks, "clarke and abby won't let me go because of my leg"

he nods, "it's ok. you can sit here with me"

i roll my eyes, "as fun as that doesn't sound, i need to be there. i need to figure out a way out of here" he shakes his head, "no. follow the orders, abby is going back to tondc. you're needed here, with us" i sigh, "i feel useless"

"it's ok. their gonna save everyone" i shake my head, "yea, and i'll be here. sitting with the wounded even though i'm fine"

i hear him sigh, "you're not. but you're not being useless, you're helping everyone here. and that's all that matters. you're being helpful without risking your life" 

i nod, "yea, i guess" i sit down in the chair next to him. he holds out his hand, i look at it. i place my hand in his and he squeezes my hand. "i'm proud of the women you've became" he mumbles, "thanks dad" 

"i mean it. you're strong, smart, you get that all from your mother" i let go of his hand, "you're an amazing person, and this won't stop that" 

i nod. "i wish i believed that" i look at my hands and sigh. "i'm not a good person, i killed finn, i didn't warn anyone about the missiles, i sent bellamy to a suicide mission"

"you killed finn to save him from being tortured, you were waiting for orders from lexa, and bellamy, is not going to die" i shake my head, "we don't know that"

"right now, we know nothing"

...

i hear yelling outside. "i'll be right back" i stand up walking out of medical, i see red smoke, and people running. no. they can't be here, i run into the ship. "dad we have to go now" i run over to him helping him up,"what's happening?"

"the mountain men, they're here. we have to get out of here"

"what about everyone else?" he asks, "it's too late. clarke will save them, but we have to go now"

i start helping him out through the back, "come on" we continue moving trying to sneak out of camp. "hey!" i hear, 

i look back and see one of them, wearing a mask. i turn and continue. "dad i need you to run faster" i mumble,