Strangers

fog of war

two days later*

i haven't spoke to finn since we got back. "ok, tell me again" i hear bellamy say. "it's a labyrinth. we got to the dam through this tunnel" clarke says. "it's all connected to the mine system that's our way in"

"sure, if we can get passed the reapers and mountain men" i look at bellamy, "i swear to god, if your mom doesn't sanction a mission soon... i'm going by myself"

"you won't be by yourself" he looks at me and i nod. i look behind him and see finn walk out of the ship. "guess the inquisition's over"

he turns back to me. "how's finn doing anyway?" he asks, i shrug. "i haven't talked to him since we got back. i don't know what to say, he just kept shooting" i mumble. "we're at war kaleigh, we've all done things"

"hey" finn says. "hey" bellamy adds. i look at finn, "next rounds on me" bellamy says, "clarke come with me"

finn sits down and i don't look at him. "mount weather" i nod. "what's the plan?"

"still working on it"

"ah, check it out. salvaged monty's still from the dropship" murphy says walking over to us. i look away, "now, i guess, you know, if they could just salvage monty" he adds. i look at him, "easy, it's just a joke" he says laughing. "ok, you tell her we were cleared?"

"no" finn says looking at me, "well, looks like our pardon for surviving includes our time on the ground. now bigger fish to fry i guess"

"we did what we had to do" finn says looking at me, "i gotta go" he walks away and murphy whistles. "trouble in paradies?"

"just because they pardoned you, doesn't mean i have"

clarke comes back to the table, "i'm tired. i'm gonna go sleep" i walk into the ship and go to a room, 

i sit on the bed and sigh. i replay the imagine of finn shooting those people over and over in my head, the look on his face when he saw me. even now, 

we did what we had to do? seriously.  who says that after murdering a village over a girl.

i get a knock on my door, "come in" the door opens and bellamy walks in, "hey. you ok?" he asks, i nod. "fine"

he shuts the door behind him. "you don't seem fine" 

"i am, what'd you come in here for?" i ask. "figured you could use some company" i nod, "sure" he sits next to me. "so what'd finn have to say"

"that they did what they had to do" i mumble, "bullshit" i add. "you know, for thinking i knew someone. i don't know who the fuck he is" i say turning my body to face bellamy. "how could he do that, massacre a whole village. of innocent people" 

he shrugs, "i don't know. i shouldn't have let him go with murphy, i'm sorry"

"bellamy don't apologize, it's not your fault. you did what you had to do, to protect your people"

"but i didn't protect theirs" he looks away from me, "i'm sorry, but what finn did is not your fault"

he looks at me, "you really believe that?" he mumbles. i nod, "i do" i look in his eyes, 

we just look at each other for a couple minutes. "bellamy i-"

"i know, you love-"

"you" i blurt out. his eyes widen, "what?"

"nothing forget i said that" i say looking away from him.

fucking idiot. "kaleigh" he says, i close my eyes. "i do too" i feel him touch my face gently, i open my eyes and i'm looking at him, "i love you too" he leans in smashing his lips onto mine gently.