Illusion of my dreams

Positive/negative

•Laure's POV•

The next day I was nervously sitting on the toilet, a pregnancy test between my fingers. I didn't dare to look, I was too scared for the results.

If I was indeed pregnant I knew I would start crying with an instant. Just because my child won't have a father and I knew Tom wouldn't want to participate in fatherhood at all.

He's not even the dad so why would he volunteer to raise the child with me?

I sighed, collecting all my left over courage to gaze down at the test.

As soon as I laid my eyes onto the test my heart dropped.

I was pregnant.

" fuck."

I whispered, tears welling up in the corners of my eyes.

" why me?"

I started crying.

Positive.

I angrily threw the test onto the floor, it slid a few more centimeters due to the high force I threw it with and eventually ended up at the door. I cupped my face with my palms and allowed my salty tears to fall onto my hands.

This wasn't how I planned my life to be, none of this was but I knew I couldn't change it anymore. I wiped my tears but they just kept coming.

The amount of loneliness I was feeling at that moment was killing me.

I knew Erika told me she would always be by my side but it doesn't feel the same anymore.

The amount of damage these guys have done to our friendship was insane and I was in denial.

I started sobbing, uncontrollably. I quickly stood up, glaring at myself in the mirror. I'm a fucking disgrace to this world. I'm everything parents warn their children about. I trailed my eyes down my face, noticing every little flaw I carried with me.

I had thick mascara traces rubbed on my cheeks, puffy eyes and tears sliding down my face.

I looked like a mess. I quickly grasped the pregnancy test from the floor and exited the bathroom.

I had no idea how to announce this pregnancy to the rest of the guys and I was terribly afraid of their reactions. But I knew I couldn't keep this a secret anyway since it will start to show after a few weeks so I decided to collect all my courage and tell them.

First I wanted to tell Erika since I already knew she wouldn't be angry, then i would have to force myself to talk to Tom because I'm his " pet" and if I'm pregnant that also means it's kinda his responsibility too.

I could already sense his rage and how mad he will be at me.

He's most definitely going to beat me up or atleast yell at me. But I never ment to become pregnant in the first place.

I got raped on camera.

I was too afraid to fight back so I just allowed it to happen.

I thought I would never be able to escape Chiyo's grip but luckily I did.

I sauntered over to Erika's room. She was busy doing her hair when I walked in.

" oh Laure, hi!"

She smiled as she turned her head, a large brush still tangled in her thick hair.

" what's up?"

She asked before turning back to the mirror, slowly sliding the brush out of her hair.

" well.."

I started.

" I'm pregnant."

" wait what? Did you take the test?"