Illusion of my dreams

Dying to be free

My eyelids slowly opened and allowed the kisses of the sun to enter my eyes. I sighed and looked around the area, desperately trying to orientate myself.

I felt strong pain coming from my arm and I had a throbbing headache. Suddenly I got flashbacks from the night before.

The crash with Bill.

Then I realized I made it out alive, flushing my head with sadness. The second that the car crashed into the other my wish was to not survive. It could've ended so easy but now I had to die the hard way by allowing him to kill me someday when he grew sick of me. A tear slid down my stained cheeks when the realization hit me.

I didn't want to be here anymore and simply wanted to disappear as soon as possible. My whole body was sweating and the sheets were moist. I pushed myself up whilst trailing my eyes around the room. The door was locked so I took my chance and ducked down to the floor to find my secret stock alcohol and meds. I had to do it the hard way.

I grasped for the small package of paracetamol and the bottles of pure vodka I had recently stolen from Bill. Another tear escaped my eye as i watched myself open the package of medicine. I sighed as I ruffled the aluminium and the pills jumped out. " oh come on." I muttered before collecting all the pills from the floor.

I also opened the bottle of alcohol.

" please let this work."

I whispered before grabbing a pill, drinking it down with vodka.

I continued to do that until nearly the whole pack of paracetamol had emptied. The alcohol rushed trough my veins as I took multiple sips. I squeezed my eyes shut, rethinking my whole decision. Not a single thing I regretted. I just hoped it would work and that I could simply disappear without causing too much drama.

I stood up from the floor but stumbled over my own feet whilst I tried to walk to my bed. I fell onto my knees and my head was aching. Dizziness in my eyes, thoughts rushing trough my mind. More tears slid down my face as I watched my trembling hands. I felt too overwhelmed and laid down on my side and closed my eyes again, allowing myself to drown in my own killing thoughts. The pain became too much and I couldn't take it anymore. I felt drowsy as my body started to sleep.

Please just work.

•Bills POV•

I walked down the stairs, my mind foggy and confused as I did so.

I could hear laughter coming from the livingroom as I neared the door. Toms loud and bold chuckles filled the air as he slapped his thigh out of laughter. I felt different, I felt sloppy and sick as if something was terribly wrong. I sighed before pushing the door wide open, meeting eyes with my friends. " where's Erika?" I asked as I noticed her not being there.

" we needed the livingroom so we put her inside her own room."

Laure said whilst leaning deeper into the couch with a smirk. I just nodded before taking place next to my brother Tom who had a mischievous smile plastered on his face.

His eyes danced from Dia to Laure to me. I rolled my eyes at him before rubbing them with annoyance.

" well, do you think she's ready to go out tonight? Chiyo is hosting a party again. This time he wanted us to battle him in his basement."

Tom laughed.

" I hope so."

I grunted with a shrug of my shoulders.

I looked over at Gustav who was rubbing Calina's thigh with delight as they constantly whispered filthy things into eachothers ears. I somehow felt lonely as I endured seeing all my friends having a good time with their pets whilst mine was constantly out. I started to think we put too much pressure on her since she was always sick or unconcious. Tom was just jealous that I finally found a good girl, that's why he wants to take her away from me now.