Illusion of my dreams

I'm free

" fuck!"

Toms voice echoed trough the apartment, causing shivers trailing down my spine.

Suddenly the sound of a door getting ripped open filled the air and Tom barged out, his face pale and his eyes filled with agony.

" someone help! I don't know what to do!"

He yelled at us.

" get the fuck up!"

He shouted at us.

Bill squirmed his way back to his feet and grabbed both of my wrists, pulling me up and catching my numb body in his arms again.

" what's wrong?"

Bill asked as he tried maintaining me up.

" Laure. Laure, she's.."

" she's dead."

My heart dropped, fear plastered all over my face.

Suddenly I collected all my senses again and pushed myself out of Bills arms, rushing to her room.

" no!"

I screamed, my voice hoarse as tears escaped my eyes, falling right onto the bedsheet that was keeping Laure's cold body warm.

" no."

I sobbed.

I stroked her face, my heart shattered in a hundred pieces and in that moment, I knew I had lost the only thing keeping me alive. I was all on my own now. Dia died a few months ago and that already caused me to grieve extremely but now Laure? No.

" fuck!"

I cried, my head throbbing as I denied the news I just received.

I wasn't ready for this.

I imagined our whole lives together, raising her beautiful child, drinking champagne together on the balcony and just generally enjoying life.

For some reason I still had a spark of hope left inside of me. I thought Laure and I still had a chance of escaping this horrible life and continue our lives together but I was wrong.

Tears soaked the bedsheet of the bed she was lying on and my whole world had just stopped spinning.

I felt terribly lost.

I could feel everyone's eyes pierced onto me but at that point I couldn't care less.

Losing Laure was one of my worst nightmares and the fact it actually became reality simply crushed my already destroyed soul. It couldn't get worse than this.

She was the sun after the rain, the small light at the end of the dark and endless looking tunnel.

She really was the reason for my existence.

" Erika.."

Bill quietly spoke.

" shut up!"

I screamed, tears sliding down my cheeks and mascara traces following the tear his lead.

No one dared to utter a word anymore and watched how I completely lost myself over Laure's dead body. I instantly tried cpr on her but sadly I never learned how to properly preform it so I failed miserably.

Her once bold heartbeat has faded to a non existent one.

I wasn't even there when she took her last breaths and I never got to hear her last words, but I assumed they weren't great since she was in so much pain whilst she died.