How Did We Get Here?

Chapter 4

Bea POV

It's crazy to think about that the only thing that is crossing my mind right now is how I can make her feel better and at the same time to just really be there for her.

"You know it's okay to cry for as long as you want until you couldn't anymore. Kahit mabubulabog mo lagi tulog ko." I tried to joke but she was still sporting that sad look on her face.

"There is this one favorite line of mine from one of my favorite spoken word artist. Luha ang pinakamabisang panglanggas sa sugat ng puso."

"Masakit naman kasi talaga Bei. I mean I thought madali lang pero araw araw ko pa rin naiisip ano bang nagawa kong mali bakit ako ganun kadaling iwanan?"

"I cannot answer for him Cait. Pero hindi naman lahat iiwan ka."

"Do you think if nagpaganda pa ko ng husto hindi hahantong sa ganito?"

I sat beside her and leaned back on her headboard.

"If to him you may be replaceable but to others wala kang kailangan baguhin with how you look and you would still be seen as the most beautiful girl in their eyes."

"At sino naman yang others na yan?"

"Wala baka on the way malay mo."

"Tignan mo to bibitaw bitaw ng ganyang linyahan wala naman mabigay na pangalan."

"Well generally speaking naman kasi that is how love or relationship works. Wag mo sanang masamain coz I know this may hurt Cait but maybe you will never really be enough to someone who doesn't love you as much."

"Tingin mo ba hindi niya ko minahal?"

"I cannot directly answer that Cait especially 5 years ang naging relasyon niyo. Kaso ikaw ba tingin mo kaya mong lokohin at ipagpalit ang taong mahal mo? Kasi ako hinde e."

"Hindi rin naman for me. Pero ikaw baka nagsasalita ka ng patapos diyan."

"Wow najudge pa ko." Napakamot na lang ako dinamay ko ata ang sarili ko by attempting to comfort her.

"But to be fair wala kong niloko sa mga naging ex ko for the record. Kasi alam mo para sakin lang a mas mahirap manakit kaya mas gugustuhin ko na lang ako yung masaktan."

"That's so masochistic of you Bea."

"Emotionally lang naman. I mean no to physical abuse pa rin tayo. No girl deserves to be a punching bag."

"Wow sana madaming Bea sa mundo. I hope I find someone like you then." Cait proudly declared with a huge smile.

Napabulong na lang tuloy ako. "Bakit someone like me pa e pwede naman ako."

"May sinasabi ka ba?"

"Wala sabi ko mahirap makahanap ng katulad ko. Limited edition to nag-iisa lang stock nito sa mundo."

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So mission I'll be there for you let's begin.

Cait is pretty new to the team and di niya pa gamay ang sistema ni Coach O so I always tap her in the shoulder or head to let her know she is doing fine. Let her game come to her and give her best. The team sees her effort naman and for sure her playing time will come soon din. Kaya pag pinapasok siya ni Coach O lumalapit ako sa kanya when we are both inside the court. Then binubulungan ko siya that she got this. I believe in her. And she will reward me with that sweet smile and somehow I feel like I was not just helping her coz she inspires me too without knowing it and I would usually play better afterwards. I mean who wouldn't right? Your crush just gave you that million watt smile to die for.

Every time out and whenever I am on the bench I make it a point to stand next to her or behind her tas chinichika siya about the game small talks bago ko pumasok uli. It's just nice to have something to look forward to other than the game. And it is so worth it to see her interacting more, pushing herself to become better in life and in her craft.

One time pinasok siya during the crucial part of the match and I could sense na natetense siya. I looped my arm over her head and it landed on her shoulder. "Wag kang kabahan. Mapapatay mo yang bola I'm sure of it. Wag kang matakot to ask for it." And she nodded and afterwards she strung a couple of points for us with that renewed confidence and eventually bagged us a win.

Pagbalik namin sa room after the game nagulat ako when she hugged me. "Thank you roomie."

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AN: Congrats CCS on making it to the semis. Total team effort today. The initial top 4 teams kept their spots safe. Now, let's get that finals slot Creamline.