How Did We Get Here?

Chapter 20

Bea POV

I waited for her to comeback but she never did. I messaged her mom but she told me ayaw pa ni Caitlin makipag usap sakin kaya nakiusap ito hayaan muna.

I went to see her in her home a couple of times to check in on her and attempted to get her to come back.

"Cait. Love, I brought you food I know pagod ka sa game. Sorry di na kita nahahatid at nasusundo at baka itaboy mo ko. And that will make a scene. Nanood ako sa phone ang galing mo love I'm so proud of you."

"Ano na naman bang ginagawa mo dito? Diba sabi ko ayaw ko munang makipagkita sayo. Sabi pa ni mama panay dala ka ng pagkain dito."

"Kinakain mo ba?"

"Do I have a choice? Minsan di na si mama nagluluto sa dami ng pinapadala mo."

"Good I just want you to know that you are always on my mind."

Tinalikuran niya na ko but I grabbed her hand.

"Love balik ka na sakin please miss na miss na kita. Sobrang lungkot pag wala ka."

"Bei I don't wanna go back right now kung alam kong pagbalik ko babalik na naman tayo sa dati at masasakal na naman ako sa kakaselos mo."

"Bigyan mo naman ako ng chance magbago Cait. I swear pagsisikapan kong baguhin ang mga bagay na ayaw mo just please come back to me. Hindi ko kaya ng wala ka e." Pagluhod at pagsusumamo ko dito.

"Then you will have to learn to live without me, without us kasi inaaral ko na din Bei." Hinila na nito ang kamay niya at pumasok sa loob ng bahay nila. Pagsara ng gate nila ay ramdam ko na parang pinagsaran na rin niya ng pintuan ang relasyon namin.

Naging karamay ko na naman ang alak. And it became too much kinausap ako ng Creamline management to take a leave for the meantime because I'm unfit to play at the moment. My parents asked me to come home when they found out pero ayoko. Iintayin ko siya hanggang bumalik siya sakin.

I fell asleep on my tummy after the 3rd bottle of Alfonso. I had a really bad headache as if I was hit by a bus. And my world was spinning around but her face was the only clear thing I could see. Kahit manlabo na ang paningin ko siya at siya lang ang marerecognize ko. Her face clear as day fixing yung pagkakahiga ko. Sa kalasingan ko din siguro to naiimagine ko bumalik na siya. I held her face and kissed her. "Amoy alak ka."


I immediately stood up and ran to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth even though I was wobbling. Before I went back to the bedroom to face her. Still a masterpiece in my eyes. I pulled her towards me to hug her. I need to know that this is real that she is really back. "Amoy alak ka pa din." I hoisted her up and didn't put her down kahit anong hampas niya sa braso ko. And brought her with me to the bathroom so we can wash together and have my way with her.

"Nagluto pala ko ng sabaw diyan kainin mo mamaya. What are you even doing with your life Bei?"

"May balak ka bang bumalik or you only came to check on me?"

"Kinausap ako ng mom mo. Kasi worried sila lahat sayo."

"Yup lahat sila except you."

"Pupunta ba ko dito if I'm not?"

"Tell you what if you don't intend to stay pwede mo ng dalhin yung sabaw mo on your way out. I want to stay in my bed for as long as I can. Oh our bed nga pala."

"Stay? You expect me to stay when you don't have plans of fixing yourself?"

"Maaayos pa ba ko kung sirang sira na ko sa paningin mo?"

"How did we get here Bea? Akala ko magiging ok tayo kaya binigay ko lahat lahat sayo. Pero ang ginagawa mo ano sa tuwing may problema tayo we just have sex. Well sex isn't always the solution to all our problems. We are dysfunctional together Bei."

"Kung kating kati ka na sumama sa iba then go. Bakit need ko pa malaman yung excuses mo?"

And just like that nafacial na naman ako. She stood up grabbed her bag and slammed the door shut.

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I was drinking alone in the bar when this girl starts kissing me all over. Tinulak ko ito at muntik matumba. "Get off me." Lumapit yung bouncer sa amin.

"May problema ba dito Boss?"

I stood up and was planning to launch a jab on the intruder lalo mas matangkad pa ko dito. When Deanna held my shoulder.

"Boss wala kasama ko to pagpasensyahan mo na medyo nakainom na."

"Ate Bei balak mo bang maospital sa binabalak mo? Kahit mas matangkad ka dun tumba ka dun pag gumanti yun he's bulky."

"Stop acting like you care D."

"Di mo ko kaaway ate Bei. Kahit di niya sabihin alam ko worried sayo si Darling."

"Stop mentioning her name especially that pet name baka makalimutan kong taken ka."

"Geez ate Bei ang hirap mong ipaglaban."

"Di mo ko jowa para ipaglaban mo."

"Gusto ko lang sabihin ayusin mo ang sarili mo. Kung ayaw mo ng bumalik ng volleyball ok lang just do something productive instead of wallowing in your sorrow. I know mahal ka pa rin ni Cait. Pero mas gusto niyang mahalin mo yung sarili mo."

"Do you think may pag-asa pa kami?"

"Of course. I know deep inside may inis ka pang konti sakin coz you were right may konting gusto ako kay Cait noon. But I could never deny that you two are like two peas in a pod. You two just click together. It is hard to imagine a Cait without Bea or a Bea without Cait. How do I even get in between that before sige nga?"

"Nakakainis na mas bata ka but you are making much more sense than me right now."

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AN: Play niyo music while reading para damang dama 🤣. Also if you guys haven't read Forget You by readtoescape cb wattpad story din basahin niyo na super ganda. Props also sa kaibigang wattpad writer din dito she has an ongoing story I believe in love but not in marriage ang ganda din go basahin niyo na.