Lucid

Tempted|5

ᥫ᭡•NYASIA•ᥫ᭡

I downed two shots of vodka back to back raising my head to the sky pulling my jacket offfff. I was getting hot.
Why mi wear jacket ina hot climate?

"Alright who nexxxt?" Misha asked looking to Sofía then Mandi.

Mandi rolled her eyes taking a shot then coughing.
Weak.

We all laughed and she hissed taking another then coughing again.

"Me no know wa so funny." She said rolling her eyes.

Mandi and Misha were Sophia's cousins. I didn't know them personally, even though I had heard about them before we hadn't officially met until we got together few hours earlier. Misha was also Sophia's best friend, she seemed cool and chill. She was consistently trying to include me in their conversations and was basically always friendly and smiling.

Mandi on the other hand was totally different. I noticed how she would talk to me differently from the others or with an attitude.
I was unsure if she just disliked me or she just had a bad attitude all together.

"If all a we drunk how we reach home?" Sophia asked as she slipped from the stool to stand in front of me.
"Me nah drink no more." She added.

I shrugged I didn't care, I just wanted to get flat out drunk. Drown out every single thought every single emotion.
Yard woulda safer fi do dat still.

My thoughts had began running rampant, I would constantly think of her. Something she'd say or do or the way she looked, it was tearing me apart. I didn't know how to stop it or turn it off once it got started. Maybe I'd gotten used to being around my family the few days I'd been in Clarendon. It was hard adjusting without them. I was certain I no longer wanted to be alone.

"Justin ago come back fi wi—wull on him a call me." Misha muttered taking another shot of liquor.

She moved from where we were to get away from the noise I assumed. We were currently at Sophia's favorite chill spot Ribbiz. Just chilling and drinking. The place was buzzing with people which made the experience for me all the more real. I'd spent the last few days wanting peace and solitude only to feel lost and anxious when I finally had a little of it.

"Uno woulda wah go a one party?" Misha asked still holding the phone to her ear.

Best me gah me yard e no.

"Where." Sophie asked her.

"Windsor heights, it's in a parking lot."

Sophia turned to me eyes silently asking if I was up for it. I wasn't sure, gosh I hated being put on the spot. Then again what time was it? I'd probably go home to cry and drink, faced with a ton load of memories that would break my heart.
Why not?

"Yeah why not."  I mumbled.

"Yeah babe they say yes, no Sophie drive. Yeh but we barely drink memba we just reach like an hour ago or so.....  Yeah all a we, noooo listen no... Alright babe I'll tell her."

Watch how me did actively listen e girl convo tho.... Fasss.

"So he says he's gonna leave out in a few minutes to come get us, butttt since Sophie drove here and all a we did a drink, him ago mek him fren come and drive her car. If that's okay with you Soph."

Maybe mi fi jus gwome go lay down.
I sighed inwardly.

Know how long one party no see me?
Matter a fact know how long outside no see me? If it wasn't for work, errands and family I'd be home inside everyday.
Definitely a home body.