Lucid

Bad dream|11

ᥫ᭡•NYASIA•ᥫ᭡

The fact that I was going to have to face that man made my skin crawl. Maybe I was overeating but I really felt disgusted, repulsed even.

Walking up to the veranda I tried to get inside without any form of conversing but I failed when one of my great Aunts stopped me to ask how I was and give a few encouraging words. It wasn't so bad to be honest she invited me to church, I just wanted to be alone for a minute.
See my dilemma again?

I walked through the living room noticing persons stretched out on the sofa.
I do not know.

I made my way to my room pursing my lips when I realised there were three kids in my bed. I shook my head and laughed.
A fi who fa pickney dem ya tho God?

I opened the adjoined door inside that led to Ali's room and it was empty.
Alright just five minutes or ten, I told Soph to give me ten. Just need a lil break Rodaine just upset mi spirit and stir up all these negative emotions.

Laying on Ali's bed that was still spread with the blue sheets, her favourite color. I smiled ruefully at the stuffed animals on the bed. The room was exactly the same, I could even smell her. She had a poster of Masicka and a K-pop star on her wall, I didn't remember his name, she had told me numerous times but it always slipped my mind. Joom or Joon something.

The room was softly lit, I could make out her school bag, books and other stuff on her shelf. Which reminded me I wanted to talk with her best friend Deandra. I hadn't seen her since night or since Ali's passing, which was strange. I'd seen a few of her mates but she was a no show.

My eyes filled with tears and I blinked them away.

"Mi cyah do dis right now." I whispered.

"Cyah believe you gone Ali." I continued as I shook my head. I wished it was all a bad dream and I'd wake up any minute.

I sat up then stood, smoothed her sheets back in place then exited the room. I didn't know why I thought I could face her room when I hadn't stepped foot in inside since I came here. I went into the hallway wiping my eyes.

"Asia."

Sighing heavily I looked to the ceiling.
Seem like every five minutes or less mi sigh

"Rodaine wa you want?"
Leave mi alone nuh man.

He looked taken aback which was crazy, him no understand?

That's insane.

"I just wanted to talk. You still haven't unblocked me."

"We are over. You left me and go bout you business fi weeks. Why are you even here? I told you we done. You weren't even there when I truly needed you and now you show up after what you do the other night. I've been avoiding you for a reason please take the hint. See where ever you did deh please gwaan back."

Please.

Just want to talk? Not even show some support of compassion for Ali, all he was here for was to get back with me. After what him do.
He knew her for over a year and he didn't even care?