(from Goddess of Innocence: The Autobiography of Catlyn Bordio)
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I say that Veronica is the main reason I kept Serenity, and while that is true, another part of it is seeing what happened with the Gressi's on a few occasions.
I knew about the Lizia and Georgette situation, Jadey had told me about Tala and Starlet, and I'd been at the Gressi house when Fenla went into labor and the panic ensued.
I was allowed to see her in the hospital, and I asked her when she was bringing her twins home, to which she replied, "I'm not. I'm giving them up for adoption."
I was a little confused by that, as a nine year old. I asked why. She replied, "Because they're not mine. I don't see them as mine." I was about to ask why again, but decided not to, just saying "Oh." I just found it weird.
I knew Lizia always felt awful about her situation. I always felt bad for her. If I'd been her, I feel like I would've told Emelise to get off her ass and take care of her own damn kids, but I'm not 2008 Lizia Gressi. I personally would've at least asked Candy to keep Georgette's last name.
So, when I found out I was pregnant with Serenity, I had an array of emotions. I was too scared to tell my mom, so abortion was off the table. For awhile, I didn't know if I was keeping my baby. I'd look at the Gressi's and see what became of Emelise and then think that I was gonna give her up for adoption. Then I'd feel her move around and I'd love her and think that I was keeping her.
As I said earlier, when I told my mom that I was scared of her mostly raising the baby, I was surprised by how quickly she agreed.
I, again, as I said earlier, told her I was keeping the baby. I contemplated changing my mind and then I thought about Lizia and it sealed my decision to keep her.
This is something I'm editing in just now stop accusing me of knowing about Robby Jadey never told me about him so stop it.
