The Huntress - Daryl Dixon BOOK ONE

Part 54

The sanctuary

You was sat with Negan reading as he sorted through some things "it's Rick grimes" static spoke through the walkie talkie Negan looked at you and picked it up "Ricky. Look at you, calling me up. You want to tell me where you are so we can do this face to face" "carls dead" your heart dropped as tears spilled your eyes over and over you was struggling to breath Negan came over to you and pulled you into a hug trying to help "he wrote letters" "no no no no my baby" you cried over and over, "he wrote one to you he asked you to stop, he asked me to stop he asked us for peace but it's to late for that, even if we wanted a deal now it doesn't matter, I'm gunna kill you" you wanted nothing more than to go and be with your true family Negan gripped you "hey it's okay I'm here" he whispered nice things in your ear as he rubbed your back.

"how did it happen" he questioned Rick "what" "how did he die was it us, was it the grenades, the fire " negan asked "it wasn't you" ricks angry voice came through "Carl went out to help someone, and he got bit" more cries came out of your mouth and more tears spread down your face it was becoming uncontrollable "god damn it, shit I...um ..I am sorry you know I wanted him to be apart of things I had plans he... that kid that kid was the future" he was being nice and you couldn't tell if it was because of you or because he liked Carl.

"the only future is one where your dead" you turned off after that not hearing bar ringing in your ears just wanted to go to bed and cry, you ran to the bathroom and threw up feeling a small flutter in your stomach, it was in this moment where you thought maybe you could be pregnant but you knew for a fact it couldn't be Negans you always wore a comdom part of your rules, and if you was pregnant it would be with Daryl and make you about 2 and a 1/2 months pregnant you held your belly and smiled then cried more , you didn't think you'd ever have kids let alone be in this situation not with the man you love, sleeping with someone else to protect the kids and now Carl ....Carl was dead and you hadn't hugged or kissed his head or just spoke to him properly in so long the guilt was eating you up.

Carson and Gabriel escaped the sanctuary is all you knew that had happened, right now you hadn't moved out of bed for god knows how long you didn't speak to anyone just cried and grieved your boy, you listened to everything Negan said but never responded, you was hurting, Negan came in huffing and puffing about Eugene and there meeting just minutes ago, you was facing the other way "lyric I'm sorry about Carl" "please....please don't" you croaked out not ready to talk about Carl yet.

You watched Negan from the window with a bunch of saviours, he was hitting and poking at walkers, you couldn't hear him but it was abit strange he hadn't really spoke to you since you told him not to talk about Carl he's just left you alone to grieve which you appreciated.

Dwight was back aswell which you hadn't really even known  he was gone he came to talk to you when he thought it was safest, "Daryl misses you yanno" you looked at him " he was talking to Rosita about you, he really loves you" "no he's pissed at me the way he looked at me the other week wasn't good" Dwight nodded back "yeah he might be pissed but that doesn't mean he doesn't love you" you was crying once again you missed them all so much and couldn't wait till this was all over to go back to them "I'm sorry, I'm going to leave you to it plus can't have Negan see me in here" you smiled weakly at him and nodded back

On the streets

Dwight said I needed to stay with him and Simon on this run, Rick and the others was planning on jumping Negan at some point and you couldn't be in the way Rick would never forgive himself if he got you killed, so you stayed with them.

You walked next to them as Simon spoke "you must have thought about it clipping himself" "you mean when he took my wife, or burnt my face, no. Never thought about that not once," he spoke sarcastically, you was walking behind them trying to get involved "but you didn't because you chose to survive, instead  of focusing on past discomforts, you are an adult. You did what you had to to live, and yet our leader is not doing the same. He took your wife damn he took lyric from her boyfriend and family and kids he doesn't care, if it was my call, we'd say enough, we'd branch out we'd find new places we'd make new relationships, we'd make sure the saviours service , as you chose to. And we'd move on from past discomforts as you, wisely chose to" Dwight chuckles pacing up and down you stood with your rifle "just move on" Simon didn't answer he just walked off you and Dwight following him.

We walked up to Negans turned over car blood smeared everywhere "that could be Negans blood" Simon spoke "or it could be the bucket full of guts" you sarcastically said he gave you a funny look, "he could be anywhere alive or dead, somewhere in between, just cause he walked away doesn't mean he's breathing, we could keep looking maybe find him more alive than dead but then what, or we could walk away get back to our people make things even better" he was fully invested in trying to get you both to turn on Negan, even though you was already against him you started walking away not making it obvious that you was "where are you going" Simon shouted "you can not expect me to just turn on him or follow you now because his car is filled with blood, that might not even be his, what you do Simon I want nothing to do with it because when he comes back it will be you who gets the shit not me" you walked away seconds later the car was on fire and you knew Dwight threw the cigarette