"I would risk anything to kiss you again."
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Kim was gripping the steering wheel tightly as he drove to the place where it all supposedly ended. His anxiety grew and grew as time passed and it shook his core. Kim's thoughts were all about Porchay and his safety. He can't even imagine the thought of Porchay being hurt. He can't. He shouldn't be hurt. If Porchay is hurt, he will make sure the person who hurt him will suffer even after death.
Kim stepped on the accelerator with much force, fully speeding the engine further. He doesn't care if he broke a traffic rule. What matters is that he arrived at the place as soon as possible before anything worse happened. "This fucking thing is slow," he muttered under his breath. How the fuck everything suddenly feels so slow when Kim needs it to be as fast as possible? Kim has to be there already. This wasn't supposed to be happening. Why is this happening in the first place?
Kim was full of rage. It was blinding. It was clouding his thoughts. Kim could only see red and his blood was boiling. The hunger to kill fills his system. He wants to kill. He needs to kill. That is the only way to fill the void in his system. This night won't end without blood getting shed.
The voice in his ears suddenly distracted him from his dangerous thoughts, "Drive carefully, Kim. There's a higher possibility you die from an accident first than wherever you are going to." Tankhun said on his earpiece. Kim groaned and he rolled his eyes. Tankhun insisted on going with him at first, but Kim firmly said no. Still, Tankhun wanted to be part of this rescue mission. He wants to be useful for once. So, Kim put him in communications with Arm instead, they are responsible for informing him of everything that is happening. Kim felt like he made a wrong decision since Tankhun had been talking nonstop on his earpiece all this time. Tankhun is distracting him, shambling his thoughts. He is not giving him enough headspace to think of a plan.
Kim's only plan was to save Porchay. Other than that, nothing. He will just go right into danger and let things happen. The main goal is to make sure that Porchay is safe. He doesn't care about himself, he doesn't care what would happen to him at all. Porchay is important to him. Porchay is his life. He needs him alive. He needs him well. He needs him unscathed.
"You're distracting me," Kim muttered. The urge to remove his earpiece is strong. Even the moment Tankhun forced him to wear it, he wanted to take it off almost immediately. If Tankhun didn't just throw a tantrum at him, he wouldn't do it.
"It is because you don't listen to me, Kim!" Tankhun screamed on the other end which made Kim wince. Fucking hell. He wanted to remove this damn earpiece. He can't have someone who keeps shouting in his ear. He sighed loudly, hoping Tankhun would get a hint of how irritated he was. Unfortunately, his brother didn't seem to get it and continued speaking to him, "Don't get in right away, Kim. Wait for the backup, they're on their way."
"No. They are taking way too long. Hell knows what's happening there already." Kim responded. The firm hold he had on his steering wheel whitened his knuckles. Many thoughts entered his mind the moment he realized that Porchay was in danger. He was thinking and thinking; how could he save Porchay without harming the only love of his life? How could he make the person who did this suffer eternally? What would happen to him if something happened to Porchay?
Kim knows that negotiation is one of the peaceful ways to save Porchay, even though he knows nonviolent discussions are not his thing, but he will do it if it could save his love. Kim's rationality was being washed over by rage. Get in. Save Porchay. Kill. That's all he could think of.
"Exactly, Kim. We don't know what is happening. Don't be so stupid. We have goals here and one of those is to make sure of your safety as well. We don't need collateral damage, Kim. I need you and Dad to be safe as you wanted Porchay to be one too." Tankhun said. "You wouldn't be able to save Porchay if you were dead, Kim. Keep that in mind."
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KIMCHAY TALES: BITTERSWEET EXCHANGE
FanfictionStarring Kimhan Theerapanyakul and Porchay Kittisawat. #kimchayau