The Tour

07

"Oh you two are absolute fucking idiots" a voice said as I instantly looked towards the door seeing Ashton stood there before slamming it shut behind him

"Mate I-" Luke started as he quickly began putting clothes back on

"I don't wanna hear it" Ashton snapped looking at me heartbroken "Nicky at least tell me he forced you so I can beat the shit out of him" he pleaded as I shook my head

"It wasn't like that Ash" I replied extremely embarrassed that he'd just walked in on us

"Why... Why have you done this can the two of you just not stay away from one another. Every time you split the same thing happens again and again" he practically shouted as Luke rolled his eyes

"It's just sex Ashton. Do you really think I want her back?" Luke snapped as I felt myself tear up. The asshole is back. Was nice to see the nice Luke for 10 minutes.

"Are you joking me?" I snapped standing up

"Look at you Nicky you're a mess you basically threw yourself at me. I can't help it that you need me I just saw an opportunity and took it. It was just sex it means nothing" he replied as I began to cry and left the room

"You are an ass" I heard Ashton announce to him as I ran down the stairs trying to find the closest exit.

"Nicky wait" I heard a voice shout after me. Assuming it was Ashton I shook my head and continued walking not wanting any further embarrassment tonight.

"Nicky please" the same voice pleaded as I stopped knowing they were probably running and would catch me up eventually. I turned around to see my prediction was correct and Ashton was there

"Ashton I'm so s-"

"Don't finish that sentence I don't need an apology" he replied as I continued to cry and he wrapped his arms around me "what happened?"

"He did his usual Ashton. He got my attention was nice to me and I feel for it as usual he just made me fall for him again" I replied crying into his chest as he held me

"I'm sorry Nicky I'm sorry he's like this" he replied as I shook my head

"No I'm sorry I cause all this. There would be no drama if I was here I need to leave the tour I'll go tomorrow" I quickly said as he shook his head

"Absolutely not you're not doing that because then he wins Nicky. You cannot let him push you around and stop you from doing what you want to do. Please stay." He replied as I continued to cry

"I'll think about it Ashton I just don't want to ruin any more of this tour for you all"

"You haven't it's him" he replied as I nodded

"I'm just gonna head back to my tour bus" I replied

"I'll walk with you. We don't have to talk I just want to make sure you're safe it's way too dark for you to be alone"

"Thank you"

As we walked I chose to stay silent and Ashton respected that. I was too gobsmacked to say anymore. The way Luke had behaved was like a flip of a switch he can't drop the hard man I don't care act in front of his own friends. The people he calls his brothers are even starting to despise him. I know his behaviours aren't directly my fault but I'm still involved. And I don't want him to win and have me leave the tour but in my head that's the only option and if that Waterparks tour was starting next week I'd be there in seconds for my own stability.

"Here we are" I hear Ashton say as I look up from the pavement I've been staring at the whole walk and saw my tour bus "if you need anything just call me okay" he said as I smiled "I'll be in our bus"

"Thank you Ashton I mean it" I replied as he smiled and I walked onto the bus before waving goodbye to him.

Luke was the odd one out in that group, the only one who hasn't grown up or matured with the rest and settled down. The media and fan sees him as a good guy who seems to never put a foot wrong but behind the scenes he is far from it and is on self distrust to hurt everyone he knows.

I quickly poured myself a drink of water before sitting down on the couch and taking out my notepad. Writing music or making small notes and poems had always been my muse and I knew if I at least tried then I may begin to feel better. The words good guy began swirling around my brain that was the only way I could describe him, my urge to write suddenly stopped and it became a list of what I hate about him

Good Guy:
- Always gets the best of me
- Makes me feel weak
- Forgets I've seen both his highs and lows
- Holds me back
- Doesn't say sorry
- Changes stories/arguments

And finally

- I fell for it bad