The Tour

12

"Ashton can I have a word" I quickly snapped walking into tonight's venue locking eye contact with him almost instantly.

A sudden rush of adrenaline had overtaken me. I don't know if it was the good night sleep I'd had, or the fact my sex life and rumours about me had been flying around Twitter.

"What's up?" He asked as I pointed towards his dressing room and let myself in with him hot on my heels

"Have you seen Twitter today ash?" I asked as he shook his head looking at me confused "does this photo ring any bells?" I asked showing him the one of me me and Luke on the stairs

"Jesus Christ who took that" he said as shook overtook his face "wait? You don't think I took it do you?" He asked as I shrugged

"I dunno did you?" I asked as he rolled his eyes

"Absolutely not, I thought the two of you were idiots that night nicky but I wouldn't do this, not even to hurt Luke" he explained as I sat down on the couch shaking my head

"Who did it then?" I questioned feeling my heart sink again. Although my life was becoming less and less private as the years went on there was still things I wanted to keep quiet. Me and Luke had done so well in the last two years at keeping our own relationship quiet and away from fans. Although we'd been together for two years the fans only know about one as we didn't want to have external influences ruin what we had at the start. We seemed to let Luke do that himself.

"There were a few fans that snuck into the party" Ashton said sheepishly as I looked up at him wide eyed. Every 5sos party had always been so high security and never once had someone who wasn't supposed to be at a party been let in

"That was the reason I was upstairs" he blurted as I looked at him confused "a few of them had followed you guys up there and were standing at the door. The photo was probably taken then, they'd been hiding there most of the evening. I went up there to tell them all to go home most of them were underage" he explained as I nodded instant guilt overtaking my body for instantly blaming him.

"I'm sorry Ashton" I explained as he shook his head

"No need to apologise, I'd assume it was me as well if I was in your shoes" he explained as I smiled "I would have expected Luke to come in here kicking and screaming though?"he questioned as I smiled

"No he seemed to listen to me for once and kept his mouth shut and let me deal with it. I didn't want a repeat of previous events" I explained as he nodded in response before looking at me and smiling

"At least your face isn't bruised" he blurted clearly trying to fill some of the silence in the room. "Sorry" he quickly said as I laughed

"It's okay, you're not wrong that is a plus though" I said standing up and saying goodbye to him still feeling extremely bad for accusing him of something he didn't do.

I quickly did a lap around the venue trying to find my bearings before the show tonight before making myself comfortable in the couch in my dressing room. I was getting slightly fed up of the what is going on with Nicky and Luke rumours and feeling as though I was lying to everyone. All I wanted was the truth to come out. I was so sick of the lies. I quickly pulled my phone out and began typing on my notes up

It upsets me to tell you that Luke and I split up a few weeks ago. Luke and I are still the greatest of friends and I am extremely thankful for him and the time we spent together. For now I hope you all can respect both of ours privacy as we navigate this difficult situation and continue with the rest of the tour in the most professional and respectful way - Nicky x

As I finished writing my note my phone lit up with kensie's name and picture as she called me.

"Hello?" I said confused knowing we usually schedule calls due to the time difference of me in America and her in London.

"Nicky!" She practically shouted "insta now" she explained as I sat there confused

"Insta? Why?"

"Luke's story" she replied as I began searching his name before clicking on his profile picture revealing his story.

I sighed and felt a pit in my stomach as I saw a photo of him and I on a night out from before tour walking home. The photo was blurry and only showed the backs of our heads but you could tell it was the two of us there was no pretending it wasn't us.

"What is he doing?" I questioned wanting to cry

"I don't know but did you see what he put as well?" Kensie asked as I rolled my eyes looking back at the post wishing there was a way I could delete this post myself

I quickly scanned the picture before seeing the word 'forever' with a heart next to it. Anger took over my body as I began to feel as though he enjoyed pissing me off. He was treating me like a piece of clothing you only want on special occasions. One day he wants me. One day he doesn't. One day I'm not good enough and the next day I'm perfect for him.

"Kensie I'll call you back" I said wanting to be left alone. He can't keep being the one in control.

"Are you okay Nic?" She asked as I shook my head feeling a tear start to go down my cheek

"No Kensie I'm not"