The Tour

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Although my morning had been ruined by my ex boyfriends fans I was determined to not let him ruin the short now day and a bit I had left in London. I was going to soak up every last minute I had with Oli today and Kensie when she got home from work later on.

As I aimless scrolled through instagram I couldn't help but clock onto Oli strumming random chords on his guitar. Light hums of mine began to collaborate with the chords finding a simple melody in my head and trying to subtly share it with him.

"If you have an idea feel free to collaborate" he said as I smiled

"Change the B to a C" I said as he looked at me confused

"Trust me" I said as he nodded and began playing the same chords again but this time with my changes

"Yes yes yes" I cheered as he laughed

"What is going on in that head" he said as I jumped around like a small child

"This is perfect" I smiled "keep playing it" I said as he began playing

There was something vicious about the way the chords sounded together. They had a force that other songs I'd written didn't. There was a very obvious bite to this.

"I'm gonna live your nightmare" I blurted as he continued to look at me confused as I began blurting possible lyrics

"When you gave up on forever" I starter as he looked at me smiling

"Said you could do better" he finished as my grin got wider and he played the same bit over again and I began singing

"When you gave up on forever said you could do better" I sang before he stopped playing and grabbed a piece of paper and a pen passing it to me letting me instantly begin jotting down random rhymes and words that I wanted to incorporate into this song we had started to write together

Excitement over took me as pieces began coming together slowly. It wasn't perfect but it was mine and was capturing the initial rage I had pent up due to Luke's behaviour. Last night and this morning was my final straw I was done protecting him or subtly digging at him in songs this was my chance to tell my truth.

"Good evening, nice to see you've turned my living room into a paper factory" Kensie laughed walking through the door seeing the possibly hundreds of scribbled on sheets of paper on the floor everywhere

"Sorry Kens" I blurted as he shook his head

"What's the vibe?" She asked as I looked at her confused

"Anger and revenge" Oli answered as she nodded picking up her iPad of the side making me smile realising what she was doing

"Well someone has to make the cover art don't they" she said before placing herself on the couch listening to us trying to perfect the song.

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"I'm going to miss you so much" I said hugging Kensie in the middle of the luggage check area at the airport

"4 more weeks Nicky you've got this" she said as I nodded hating the fact I was going back alone "I'm only a phone call away" she explained as I nodded hating

"Plus if I need anything this guy is only a arms length away" she said pointing to my brother who had driven us here

"Are you sure neither of you want to come with me" I laughed as the both shook their head

"If I did then I don't think I'd be able to not beat up Luke" James said as I laughed slightly knowing he wouldn't hurt a fly but I appreciated his overprotective side

"I second that" Kensie blurted as I nodded

"Now that i believe" I replied as James shoved me slightly not appreciating my honesty

"Not saying goodbye to me then" a voice i instantly recognised said as I turned around to see Oli stood there with his arms wide open ready for a hug

"I thought you were busy" I said knowing he'd told me previously he wasn't able to come to the airport to say goodbye due to band commitments before they went up north to continue his own tour

"I was, I made the guys stop. I had something I wanted to do" he said as I looked up at him confused

"What do you mean?" I asked as he handed me a wad of paper

"The song Nicky. You left half the stuff in the room this morning. Promise me you'll finish it" he said as I nodded

"I promise"

"Oh and one more thing" he said smiling "I just wanted to check that you'll be my girlfriend?" He asked casually making me laugh

"Yes you idiot" I smiled hugging him tightly forgetting about Kensie and James probably awkwardly stood behind us

"I'm just a call away okay." He said as I nodded

"We all are" James echoed as I looked at him seeing him smile at my new happiness with Oli

"I'm Oli" he said shaking James' hand

"James nice to meet you. Don't hurt her" he said sharply as Oli nodded

"I don't plan on it mate" he replied as I looked at my phone quickly wanting to see the time. I knew I needed to start going through security soon or I'd be running to my plane like a mad woman which I didn't really need

"One last hug?" I asked opening my arms for all of them allowing for a cringe group hug to occur. These were my people. This last week I'd truly been myself again and it was about to disappear again. But it was only 4 more weeks. 4 more weeks of hell then I was home. London was my home and it always will be.